Resistance ♥

Friday, August 28, 2009

Today 28th August 2009, I went to tuition. The 1st subject was masteri penulisan. When the clerk give the note, I was surprise because the note wrote there Cikgu Azman. Then I started think, he not at Malaysia right now but, how come the note wrote his name? After that, Cikgu Saliza enters the class and explains to us that Cikgu Salihah was now at hospital and unable to teach us today and luckily Cikgu Azman just back from other country. So, he going to replaced today class. When Cikgu Azman enters the class, I looked at him and he looks like different. He SLIM! But he voice was still the same. While he was teaching us about how to write the introduction, I don’t know why I keep on looked at him and feel he so FUNNY! Then, he teach us about the essay contain, he keep on asked us did we understand what he mean? And keep use cold joke to make us understand. But, sorry to say that, I’m not really understood what’s he talking and making the cold joke about. Not even me, the student who listen to his cold joke also look like blur and keep on sweating. Andrea keep asked me, did I understand what he said? I just straight forward say NO! Anyway, he still is one of the best teachers in Martin Tuition Center. And at least he is better than school teacher. xD

♥our lips must always be sealed

10:06 PM

For me, I dislike is my dad because every time he never think about my feeling and keep on make me feel like he really very annoying me. Today, from morning until evening, he keeps on talked with me with a lot of non sense. And keep say I wrong. But the fact is I never do anything and let him keep on say I wrong! Hey! I really don’t understand why keep on say that word to me! Okay! Fine! When after tuition, I reached home, he say that I’m the one who ate the bread yesterday midnight. I just shocked. And think, what’s? Hey! He is the one who ate the bread and said I ate that? What can’t of theory is that? Then, I fight back and said. You are the one who ate and said me. But he still said I’m the one that ate that bread. Then I just leave him. He keep on disturb me. And spoil my mood. Every time he was the one who spoil my mood. From good mood become moody. That’s why I really dislike him so much. I like my mom more than him. He thinks that I always can joke with him. As a human, we must know when the time is for us to serious and have fun. But he full time talked joke part time work. If he still not stops with this kind of attitude, I don’t know until when I will be going like him! I agree that people said that normally, girls love her mother more than the father.

♥our lips must always be sealed

10:05 PM

I was hoping that Mr. T read my blog, especially the topic that I post which name LOVE?. Yesterday, 27th August 2009 midnight he was boring and nothing to do. At the same time, I was chatting with him and my ex student. Mr. T said that he nothing to do and read my blog. When he said that he was reading my blog, I feel happy, nervous and scare. Did you know why I feel happy? Because the day that I hope had already come. I feel nervous and scare because after he read, I don’t know what his reaction is. The feeling of happy, nervous and scare had already disappeared. Here, comes a new and weird feeling. This weird feeling was hard to describe. Because when I knew that he reading, I was feeling like I’m going to hell soon. After he read the topic, he said he feeling was full of guilty. And asked me isn’t it he treat me so bad? I don’t know how to answer and say don’t know. Is that what I hope? Or is that another aim that I want? Isn’t what I wrote at the topic of LOVE was cheating myself and also him?

This 4 sentences isn’t I’m just want cheat him because want to be friend back?

And, if now u asked once again ‘did I still love you or not?’ I will answer you honestly ‘before yes! But now, I do not love you anymore!’ I just keep you as a friend. That all!

If this sentences that I write is true. Why my feeling is different? Isn’t everything remains the same? The feelings on him still the same? I also don’t know my feeling is how. I was very confusing with that feeling. I don’t hope that he see this topic of blog. I wish he forever don’t know this topic appear in my blog because I hope our friend relationship remains the same.

♥our lips must always be sealed

8:30 PM

What’s the motif of this all? What he telling me is what he really wants? Yesterday 27th August 2009, I was chatting with my ex XDO dear. He says after SPM, he going to Kuala Lumpur for future study and wants to open cybercafé at here. He said he want 24 hour online and accompanies me everyday. Then I said, I not everyday online. He replies me, I will 24 hour call or sms me. It is very weird right? Then he said, he wants chase me after he finishes SPM. At that moment I just thinking, oh my god, what is this? Is this an appointment or a promise? Or he just jokes with me? I’m going believe this? Anyway, just wait and see isn’t what he say is true or false. Is that a true statement or it is not a true statement? But for me I don’t really know what kind of people he is. I never meet him before and understand him well. If he really wants chase me, I think I will reject him. The reason of reject him is because I don’t know what kind of person he is and still don’t have the feeling on him yet. As a conclusion, I won’t touch and topic that related with L.O.V.E. I scare I get hurt again. That’s why I always say I’m single but not available.

♥our lips must always be sealed

8:28 PM

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

School holiday started. Started become lazy and everyday just know sleep and eat. Sometime will go to tuition for waste my time because at house really nothing to do and don’t know want to do what. My life really becomes very boring. I rather everyday went to tuition. At least at tuition I can study something, can make fun with teacher or friends and got air condition. I was wondering how I’m going to spent all my holiday time with do the same thing such as update my lovely blog, chatting, play facebook, edit/design picture at photoshop [create banner] and open forum look for the information and just stay at house. It looks like I’m really a very boring person. Everyday do the same thing. I’m waiting the school holiday finish and back to the normal life of me. But, when the school open, I fear to take my Malay languages and history exam paper. I scared my history result will failed because this exam I never prepare well and many question I didn’t answer. I just left it blank like that. If I fail my history I think I really need concentrated on it. Sigh. What’s a life really mean?

♥our lips must always be sealed

2:24 PM

Nowadays, H1N1 case is become serious. A lot of Malaysian people dead because of this disease. So, let see the following information about H1N1.

Under Electron Microscope

Q&A about H1N1 novel flu (“swine flu”)

What is H1N1 novel influenza (once called “swine flu”)?

H1N1 influenza is a respiratory disease caused by type A influenza viruses. It usually causes regular outbreaks in pigs and not in people. However, sometimes H1N1 viruses occur in people and, like seasonal flu, can spread from person to person. Cases of 2009 H1N1 novel flu were first reported in Mexico in February 2009. In the U.S., cases of human infection with H1N1 influenza A viruses were first reported in late March and early April in Texas and California, and have since spread to other states, including North Carolina. As with seasonal flu, illness may range from mild to severe, and some cases may be fatal.

What are the signs and symptoms of H1N1 novel flu in people?

The symptoms of H1N1 novel flu in people are similar to the symptoms of regular, seasonal human flu and include fever, cough, sore throat, body aches, headache, chills and fatigue. Some people have reported diarrhea and vomiting associated with H1N1 novel flu. Severe illness (pneumonia and respiratory failure) and deaths have been reported with H1N1 novel flu infection in some people. Like seasonal flu, H1N1 novel flu may cause a worsening of underlying chronic medical conditions.

How does H1N1 novel flu spread?

Spread of this H1N1 influenza A virus is thought to be happening in the same way that seasonal flu spreads. Flu viruses are spread mainly from person to person through coughing or sneezing of people with influenza. Sometimes people may become infected by touching something with flu viruses on it and then touching their mouth or nose. Infected people may be able to infect others beginning 1 day before symptoms develop and up to 7 or more days after becoming sick. That means that you may be able to pass on the flu to someone else before you know you are sick, as well as while you are sick.

Can I get H1N1 influenza from eating or preparing pork?

No. H1N1 influenza viruses are not spread by food. You cannot get H1N1 influenza from eating pork or pork products. Eating properly handled and cooked pork products is safe.

What should I do to keep from getting the flu?

First and most important: if you are ill and stay home from school or work to prevent spreading the virus to others. For your personal protection, wash your hands. Try not touch surfaces that may be contaminated with the flu virus. Avoid close contact with people who are sick. Try to stay in good general health. Get plenty of sleep, be physically active, manage your stress, drink plenty of fluids, and eat nutritious food. To avoid spreading flu to others, consult a doctor.

How long can an infected person spread H1N1 novel flu to others?

People with H1N1 influenza virus infection should be considered potentially contagious for at least 24 hours after fever is gone. (Fever should be gone without the use of a fever-reducing medication). Many people will continue shedding influenza virus 24 hours after their fever goes away, but at lower levels than during their fever. Children, especially younger children, might be contagious for longer periods.

What surfaces are most likely to be sources of contamination?

Droplets from a cough or sneeze of an infected person move through the air and can spread disease to people nearby. Germs can also be spread when a person touches respiratory droplets from another person on a surface like a desk and then touches their own eyes, mouth or nose before washing their hands.

How long can viruses live outside the body?

Some viruses and bacteria can live 2 hours or longer on surfaces like cafeteria tables, doorknobs, and desks. Frequent hand washing will help you reduce the chance of getting contamination from these common surfaces.

What can I do to protect myself from getting sick?

There is no vaccine available right now to protect against H1N1 novel flu. There are everyday actions that can help prevent the spread of germs that cause respiratory illnesses like influenza. Take these everyday steps to protect your health:

*If you get sick with influenza, stay home from work or school and limit contact with others to keep from infecting them.

*Wash your hands often with soap and water, especially after you cough or sneeze. Alcohol-based hand cleaners are also effective.

*Avoid touching your eyes, nose or mouth. Germs spread this way.

*Try to avoid close contact with sick people.

*Cover your nose and mouth with a tissue when you cough or sneeze. Throw the tissue in the trash after you use it.

What is the best way to keep from spreading the virus through coughing or sneezing?

If you are sick, limit your contact with other people as much as possible. Do not go to work or school if ill. Cover your mouth and nose with a tissue when coughing or sneezing. It may prevent those around you from getting sick. Put your used tissue in the waste basket. Cover your cough or sneeze if you do not have a tissue. Clean your hands every time you cough or sneeze.

What is the best way to wash my hands to avoid getting the flu?

Washing your hands often will help protect you from germs. Wash with your hands for 15 to 20 seconds with soap and warm water. When soap and water are not available, alcohol-based disposable hand wipes or gel sanitizers may be used. You can find them in most supermarkets and drugstores. If using gel, rub your hands until the gel is dry. The gel doesn't need water to work; the alcohol in it kills the germs on your hands.

What should I do if I get sick?

If you become ill with influenza-like symptoms, including fever, body aches, runny nose, sore throat, nausea, or vomiting or diarrhea, contact your health care provider. Your health care provider will determine whether influenza testing or treatment is needed.

If you are sick, you should stay home and avoid contact with other people as much as possible to keep from spreading your illness to others.

If you become ill and experience any of the following warning signs, seek emergency medical care.

In children emergency warning signs that need urgent medical attention include:

*Fast breathing or trouble breathing

*Bluish skin color

*Not drinking enough fluids

*Not waking up or not interacting

*Being so irritable that the child does not want to be held

*Flu-like symptoms improve but then return with fever and worse cough

*Fever with a rash

In adults, emergency warning signs that need urgent medical attention include:

*Difficulty breathing or shortness of breath

*Pain or pressure in the chest or abdomen

*Sudden dizziness

*Confusion

*Severe or persistent vomiting

♥our lips must always be sealed

11:48 AM

Monday, August 24, 2009

To: Jeremy

Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to Jeremy,
Happy Birthday to You.

Today is Jeremy birthday. I feel so sorry that unable celebrate birthday with him. Anyway, I wish you a happy birthday and hope your wish come true. And remember take your present from me! Actually I really want to say thank you to him because every time accompany me when I alone. And when I with my friend got problem, he is the one who advise me, change his tuition timetable and help me do my moral essay project [but until now I still not yet get back my project] I still remember what he said when the misunderstand between my friend and I had already solved, he said ‘that’s why you must appreciate your current relationship so that you all won’t argue anymore.’ This is the advice that he gave to me. You know what, I glad had a friend like you. Thanks becoming my friend.

Jeremy’s cake provided! Especially the Mocha Cake! Yummy!

Mocha Cake

Oreo Cheese Cake

Cappuccino Chesse Cake

Cappuccino Cake

Moist Chocolate Cake

Chocolate Indulgence Cake

Chocolate Fudge Cake

Chocolate Chip Walnut Cake

Chocolate Cheese Cake

Cheese Chocolate Cake

Black Forest Cake

This is my wish to Jeremy:

*Remember take care of your health, don’t eat too much of sweet thing. I know you last time almost got diabetes.

*Get good result for your exam, don’t make your parent disappointed with you and don’t because of your friend that dislike you get high score. Future is more important than other.

*Don’t always know how to play game

*Don’t always last minutes do your revision, don’t like me always burn midnight candle when the exam around the corner. Early prepare!

*Remember take care Nicole! xD

*My last wish. Remember we all, your friend. xD

♥our lips must always be sealed

12:37 PM

Thursday, August 20, 2009

I feel like this 3 song quite meaningful for me. When the first time I listen to this song I really fall in love with it. So I would like to share this 3 song with my buddy.

我知道 – by2
Chinese Version

从来没想过
不能再和你牵手
委屈时候
没有你陪着我心痛

一切都是我太过骄纵
以为你会懂
一直忘了说
我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由
我们都以接受

你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后
还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时
闭着眼没有回头

我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经吻着幸福的梦
在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

Pin yin Version

Cong lai mei xiang guo

Bu neng zai he ni qian shou

Wei qu shi hou

Mei you ni pei zhe wo xing tong

Yi qie dou shi wo tai guo jiao zong

Yi wei ni hui dong

Yi zhi wang le shuo

Wo you duo gan dong

Wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo

Sui ran fen kai de li you

Wo men dou yi jie shou

Ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo

Suo yi ji shi dao zui hou

Hai wei xiao zhe yao wo jia you

Wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo

Cai hui zai li kai shi

Bi zhe yan mei you hui tou

Wo men dou zhi dao bi ci xing zhong

Qi shi zhe fen ai mei ting guo

Ceng jing wen zhe xing fu de meng

zai nao hai li tou

Wo duo xi wang ni hai zai wo zou you

Da ying ni wo hui hao hao guo

Bu rang zhe xie yan lei bai liu

English Version

Didn't thought that

we cannot carry on holding hands

In times of grieve

you are no longer with me

That's because I was being complacent

Thought that you will understand

All along, i forgotten to tell you

how touched i was

I know you still love me

Although we both have accepted

the reason of our part

You know how sad i will be

That's why till the end,

you still cheered me on with a smile

I know you still can't let go of me

The reason why you left,

closing your eyes without turning back

But we both know deep in our hearts,

we never stop loving

Once kissing the blissful dreams,

it's still in my mind

How i wished you were still right here beside me

I promised you to live well

Not to let those tears be of waste

不够成熟 – by2
Chinese Version

想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求

我真的没有想的太多

只是怀念你走以后

离开难道真的是解脱

难道真的要试过境迁了以后才懂

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有

倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有

真的不难过笑着和你挥——挥手

想我还是不够成熟

还达不到你的要求

我真的没有想的太多

只是怀念你走以后

离开难道真的是解脱

难道真的要试过境迁的以后才懂

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有

倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有

真的不难过笑着和你挥——挥手

如果有一天我们有缘在见

你会不会想起说过的永远

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有

倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有

真的不难过笑着和你挥——挥手

Pin Yin Version

wo xiang wo hai shi bu gou cheng shou

hai da bu dao ni de yao qiu

wo zhen de mei you xiang de tai duo

zhi shi huai nian ni zou yi hou

li kai nan dao zhen de shi jie tuo

nan dao zhen de yao shi guo jing qian le yi hou cai dong

jue jiang shuo bu tong jia zhuang shen me shang dou mei you

jue jiang tao qi tou jue bu rang yan lei wang xia liu

jue jiang shuo bu tong jia zhuang shen me shang dou mei you

zhen de bu nan guo xiao zhe he ni hui hui shou

wo xiang wo hai shi bu gou cheng shou

hai da bu dao ni de yao qiu

wo zhen de mei you xiang de tai duo

zhi shi huai nian ni zou yi hou

li kai nan dao zhen de shi jie tuo

nan dao zhen de yao shi guo jing qian le yi hou cai dong

jue jiang shuo bu tong jia zhuang shen me shang dou mei you

jue jiang tao qi tou jue bu rang yan lei wang xia liu

jue jiang shuo bu tong jia zhuang shen me shang dou mei you

zhen de bu nan guo xiao zhe he ni hui hui shou

ru guo you yi tian wo men you yuan zai jian

ni hui bu hui xiang qi shuo guo de yong yuan

jue jiang shuo bu tong jia zhuang shen me shang dou mei you

jue jiang tao qi tou jue bu rang yan lei wang xia liu

jue jiang shuo bu tong jia zhuang shen me shang dou mei you

zhen de bu nan guo xiao zhe he ni hui hui shou

English Version

think I am not mature enough

I still can't meet your expectations

I really ain't thinking too much

Only reminiscing after you have left

Is leaving really a liberation?

Is there a need to try for a thousand times before we know?

Stubbornly denying the pain, pretending that i'm not hurt at all

Stubbornly lifting my head, ensure that the tears won't flow

Stubbornly denying the pain, pretending that i'm not hurt at all

Really ain't sad, smiling as i wave to you

I think I am not mature enough

I still can't meet your expectations

I really ain't thinking too much

Only reminiscing after you have left

Is leaving really a liberation?

Is there a need to try for a thousand times before we know?

Stubbornly denying the pain, pretending that i'm not hurt at all

Stubbornly lifting my head, ensure that the tears won't flow

Stubbornly denying the pain, pretending that i'm not hurt at all

Really ain't sad, smiling as i wave to you

If there comes a day, when we are fated to meet again

Will you remember the eternity we once talked about?

Stubbornly denying the pain, pretending that i'm not hurt at all

Stubbornly lifting my head, ensure that the tears won't flow

Stubbornly denying the pain, pretending that i'm not hurt at all

Really ain't sad, smiling as i wave to you

Don't Go Away - By2

Looking through your eyes, there’s nothing to hide

And you’re no longer mine

How could I survive when you say goodbye

Why do birds still fly up high?

Can’t stop the tears from fallin’

We used to be so fine when you walked into my life

I tried to reach out for you just to be with you

My heart is breakin’

Don’t Don’t Go Away

Baby,don’t you know, I miss you so.

Don’t Don’t Go Away,

I’ve never been on my own before.

Wooh…. Oh….

Can’t you hear me just take me with you

So don’t don’t go away

Don’t Don’t Go Away,

Baby, don’t you know, I miss you so.

Don’t Don’t Go Away,

I’ve never been on my own before.

So won’t you feel my heartbeat once more

♥our lips must always be sealed

5:25 PM

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

This misunderstand bring a big trouble in my life and this is not the first time this misunderstand happen. It was the second time happen and brings my life into a big change. The first case happens around April and had already solved this problem. And this second case happens around July. Just a misunderstand make the situation become like this. Everything had change. I would like to talk about the second case because this case can really make my life totally change. The story begin,

22th July 2009
I was alone the whole day, seldom talking with my entire friend because when I talked with them, they never give any respond. That’s why I keep brought all my homework to school and did it at there. They never care about what I did.

23th July 2009
Every time I sat at my place, she will went to the other friend and start their conversation. They just like avoiding me. When biology class, I sat at the 2nd table at the left side with they all and one Malay guy two Indian guys. The Malay guy asks me ‘Meng Yee, why you look so upset? Why don’t want join with they all and chat?’ And I answer ‘Nothing and I just wan do my work.’ My friend plan not going to tuition but never tells me until the school finished and I asked them got went to tuition or not. That time only they tell me not going to tuition. So I went to tuition with my classmate and had my lunch with them.

25th July 2009
I was late wake up and unable to attend the history class. So I went to the additional mathematics class and the other classes. When I sat at there, two of them came and they don’t wan sat with me. Then one of them also came already, she straight away sat at with them. After that, she sat with me. And the situation looks different. After the class finished, she said she gastric and want bought thing to ate, at that moment I was too angry with that situation, I just said bye and walked back to the class. Then she came into the class, I still sat with her but never talked with her and I just talk with my schoolmate friend. When the physics class started, I sat with her and Jeremy also. I just talked with Jeremy and I just let her alone. When lunch time, 4 of us had our lunch at one restaurant, they never care of me and they talked until very happy. Before had a lunch with them, I thought that I want to have lunch with Jeremy and his friend but when I think about it, it seem like not good called him accompany me. He always accompanies me when I was alone so this time I don’t want him to accompany me. I want try to faced them with my own self. When having lunch that time, they all really think that I’m transparent and make me don’t know what I should do. I just passed my money to one of them and I told them that I got things want to do and just out from that restaurant. I just straight away went to the tuition centre and wait for form 5 additional mathematics class finished. One of my classmates wondering why at chemistry class that time we didn’t sat together. He asked me want happen and did I want him sat with me. I just say up to you. But he didn’t sit with me. I sat alone. Every time I went back to my house and asked myself what’s really happen until they have to treat me like this? I always think back what I did? And I had no idea.

27th July 2009
I was quite late go to school. Because I don’t know how I’m going to faced they all. I don’t know why I feel fear when I went to school. When at class, I didn’t sit at my place but I sat beside the Indian guy. He kept ask me what’s going on between me and then and we didn’t say any single word. And I just answered him that I also don’t know what really happen until they treat me like this. After that 'mama' tells me this Sunday account what time start. I was thinking how to say with them about this. I just write the note in the paper and called the Indian guy help me put on their table. When finish school, I went back to my place and take all my stuff prepared for tuition. I saw the note under my desk and had written ‘eat chicken rice together?’ I saw that paper and quickly told the Indian guy, he called me to joined them but I fear that the same situation happen when I had lunch with them. They waited me but I didn't feel like want to join them. They just walked away and I went to tuition alone. When at the bus, I saw my friend and she also asked me what happen. When reached the tuition centre I told her that I don’t know what’s happening. I just know i can't control my tear. When they came into the class, I sat back my place and continue do my work. Its look like we pretend we don’t know each other. My biology teacher asked me why I looked sad. I just kept on say nothing. When the class over, he called me come near him and asked me isn’t something happen and made you so sad. And he said did you want shared with me? I said no need, thanks and just go away.

28th July 2009
Almost half of my classmate asked me what happen. I just said I also don’t know and one of my classmates asked them when after school.

29th July 2009
The day that the end of this problem. I asked my classmate what really happen between me and them. But she doesn’t let me know. When all of us included my all classmate at the library, my classmate called me to sit at the table which they were sitting. I really scared to go there but I have to! Then, she called me eye to eye looked at them. She asked them ‘Apa yang korang tak puas hati dengan Meng Yee.’ Then they all look at each other and looked like don’t know how to speak up. Finally, one of them said, actually like this, when had lunch at McDonald that time, all of us talked about change teacher and change tuition centre. We had given the signal to each other and want go tuition together but when reached the McDonald door, Meng Yee just said bye. All of us shocked. So, we thought that Meng Yee doesn't want us tuition together. Then, it was my turn to speak. I said how I know the signal? They didn’t tell me. How I know? Then she asked me isn’t I love they all. When I said YES! My tear keeps on drop and I quickly hug my classmate. After that, they just leave us sat together and talked. I don’t know why I can’t stop my tear and at last we hug together.

Just misunderstand might be destroy our relationship.
This had given me a lesson that is everything should be said out and don’t give signal.
Giving signal is hard to let people understand what you really mean and might be misunderstand the signal.
And the 1st case also give me a lesson that is think before said anything.
After this all case happen until I feel like alone is better.
That’s why sometime I talked a lot,
And sometime I don’t.

Every time when I think back

My tear will keep on falling.

The tear not come from my eye

But its come from my heart.
Maybe no people notice that, but I know I had change.

♥our lips must always be sealed

9:50 PM

Monday, August 17, 2009

Yes! This Mr. S should change! I know my attitude was not good but his attitude was double worst than me! Today 17th Aug 2009 might the end of every story that he create from the beginning until now. Or he will still continue create story or even create problem to make his own self into the trouble again? This story begin when he enter form 4. He got a girlfriend, Miss N from other school. Mr. S confesses when it was 31th Aug 2008 the day after Martin Tuition Centre Seminar for PMR. Miss N had already accepted him as a boyfriend. They looked like sweet couple every time. But this year might be a nightmare for Miss N. I really feel extreme pity her. She very trusts with his boyfriend Mr. S. She doesn’t know what Mr. S did behind her. Mr. S can say as one leg five boat. As I know what my friend has told me that Mr. S not only love Miss N but, he love four Malay girls from my class that are Miss E, Miss M, Miss J and Miss A. The most I dislike was Mr. S always not admit that Miss N was his girlfriend! When Mr. S saw all Malay girls that Mr. S admire, he will tried avoid to sat with Miss N. Sometime when Miss N faced this problem she will cried secretly and Mr. S never know about it. Just only I know about it. Every secret between Mr. S and Miss N I will know because Miss N shared her secret with me. Miss N called me to take care about Mr. S, she scared got any girl will take Mr. S away from her. I never break my promise! I really got look after him! But, when I tell Miss N what I know about Mr. S, she tells out everything to Mr. S! I already told her that don’t ever tell him about that secret! She still want let him know. After happen like that, everything that I know about Mr. S, I won’t tell to Miss N anymore until today I have to tell her everything. I tell her what’s really happen today. Today, one of my classmates, a Malay girl, Miss Ai damn angry with this Mr. S. Actually this case also related with me and Miss N. if I didn’t tell to Miss A about what Mr. S say about Miss Ai in front of Miss N. This incident might be happen anytime but it happens on today. What Mr. S said to Miss N was ‘don’t mix with this Miss Ai so much because Miss Ai attitude not good.’ Then, today I tell to Miss A about this and Miss A tells to Miss Ai about this. After that, Miss Ai asked me ‘isn’t that true?’ and I answered ‘YES!’ After the bell rang, the additional mathematic teacher when out from the class. Miss Ai put her chair behind Mr. S with full of anger. At the first, she talks nicely with Mr. S but Mr. S shows his innocent face to Miss Ai. Miss Ai unable to control herself and scolded him very loudly. Whole classmate looked at that situation and shocked even I was shocked too! Then, Miss Ai called Miss B to come there because got people find out that Mr. S told Miss N that ‘Miss B was crazy and bad! Don’t mix with her!’ Actually Mr. S don’t want Miss N know about what had he did at school that’s why Mr. S keep on said bad about his classmate. After he get scolded by Miss Ai, Mr. S whole day less talked with Miss N not only that, he doesn’t want to sit with Miss N during tuition biology and back home also don’t want to wait for Miss N. Miss N scared that they will break one day. So she asked me what’s really happen until Mr. S so angry. Then I don’t want continue cheated her and tell her the whole story. She looked at me with a very surprising face. I knew that she can’t believe everything I told her really happen on Mr. S. Now, she doesn’t know what she should do. She want me help her to find all prove and let her see. I asked her one very silly question. The question was ‘Are you want to wait until one year after only want to end of the relationship between you and him?’ But she never answers my question. I can feel how much Miss N really love Mr. S. Unfortunately, how much Mr. S love Miss N was really unable to see, this is what I can see from all his action.

How a person that he dislike doesn’t mean that he can said that person bad or what else in front of other person. We can’t judge a book based on the cover right?
From my opinion, Miss N should know she was not really important for Mr. S. And should end of this relationship now and don’t keep on wait if not pain is Miss N and not Mr. S
As the conclusion, love is BLIND!
That’s why single is better that couple!

♥our lips must always be sealed

9:06 PM

Today my additional mathematic teacher returns back my exam paper! Thanks god! Luckily I had passed my additional mathematic! But the mark really not good! I’m happy and disappointed too. I can’t believe that, this exam my whole result drop. My 1st exam 75% but my mid term exam only get 63%. I already drop 12 marks. Then, this exam I only get 45%! I had dropped 18 marks! I think after this exam, I must make myself improve double work! Meng Yee +u! Don’t so fast give up! Tze Ling, you also the same! Must +u+u to get good result for the end term exam! Every of us can’t give up so easy!

♥our lips must always be sealed

7:57 PM

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Before Choral Speaking

When Choral Speaking Competition

After Choral Speaking

4 Science was the compulsory class to take parts in this competition and certain student from 2 Angsana. At first, when my English teacher, Mrs. Selva told us that my class are going to take part choral speaking competition. Everyone was very excited. Around 2 month before the competition held, every of my class member started give up included me. The reason of giving up was, almost half of my classmate said that it was very embarrassing do the funny action and expression. Another reason we give up was the script was quite long. Every one was lazy to memorize the script, action and expression. When two week holiday, my teacher wanted us went to school for the choral speaking practice. My teacher asked one of my classmate burns the choral speaking competition for us to watch and follow some action and expression they did. After that, another classmate, Waran, ride his motorcycle to my classmate house and he had met an accident. He broke his leg and has to stay at house for 2 to 3 month. From giving up that competition, we change our mind to take this competition as an experience. 3 day before competition, we keep on train and train until 3pm something. 24th June 2009 was choral speaking competition. Every 1st and 2nd row must wear prefect cloth because it’s look neat while the 3rd row must wear the normal school uniform. Everyone looked very nervous, even the teacher also the same. Before our school performs, we kept on practice and practice to ensure that we were 100% prepared! We were the school number 10 to present our choral speaking in front of other school. That time, I started very nervous and same goes to out classmate. When we started nervous, we present not enough 8 min and we get deduct mark that why my school get top 5. After the presentation, every of us scream at outside because we had finish perform!

This is the following script:

“Mummy, where is Earth?”
“It was once our home dear… It’s far away from where we are now.”
Once? Notice the past tense.
Our story begins 30 years into the future.
The Earth, as we know it, no longer exists.
Raging fires, massive floods, the depleting ozone,
Increased CO2 emissions…
The intense climate change
Finally brought about the destruction of our home
Our Earth
We now live in a spaceship, hovering in the empty black void of the universe.
From a window, we see what is now left of our planet.
A huge mass of degradation.
“Climate change can do that?”
“YES!!!”
Climate change, is just what it says
A change in the normal weather patterns.
“Okay… So, what do I care?”
“Hey! Dude, did you know that 1 degree increase in our world’s climate can cause global destruction?”
It’s true!
A 1 degree increase in our global weather will cause extreme changes!
The polar ice caps will melt,
Causing a sudden increase in water levels.
Countries can be lost under water forever!
What else can change our climate?
CO2 emission!
An increasing amount of CO2 in our atmosphere also contributes to a change in environment.
Okay, okay
So there are just two scenarios. So… what can we do about it?
Aha! That’s a good question
Come on guys!
Let’s rewind to the present time
If we make a change now, we may still have a place to call Home, in the future.
So, come on, take a trip with us.
We, the students of school number 10 would like to introduce
Our practical guide to saving the planet.
Ladies and gentlemen
Practical guide number 10
Switch off that bulb!
Energy saving can reduce a lot of damage to our environment.
Hey, you! The next time you leave a room, remember to switch off the lights.
Guide number 9
Don’t print everything that comes to your mail. If you have to, try re-using paper.
Guide number 8
Carry a cloth bag
Say no to plastic bags.
You can make your own cloth bags, they are easy!
Besides, it’s cool to carry a cloth bag!
Ehem…! Attention please!
Guide number 7
Create homegrown oxygen
How??
You can plant a tree in your own backyard
Or even potted plants in your balcony
Hmm… hey! Sounds interesting!
Boys, one tree can offset almost one tone of carbon dioxide in its lifetime.
Guide number 6
Recycle your e-waste
When your old printer or computer breaks down, don’t throw it away!!
So, what else do it do?
Find a local store that will accept your e-waste
Any suggestion?
Hey… Have you forgotten, our famous Low Yat Plaza!!
Number 5
Buy local and organic food
These are healthier alternatives
Also, they don’t use pesticides while growing
If you have green fingers indulge in small plots of vegetables at your backyard!
Number 4
Turn off the water while brushing your teeth
Don’t be like Calvin… who sleep while the taps are open! Haha!
Running water can waste three gallons of water in three minutes!
Number 3
Take shorter showers
WHAT?? Shorter showers? Eeeuuuu….
We know you spend hours in the bathroom
Save time dear and…
Try taking a bath instead
What do you mean? What’s the difference a shower and a bath?
You know using a pail to collect water and…
A dipper to pour water on our body
Hey! Try it and
Believe us!
It is far more refreshing than the shower!
Number 2
Take public transport whenever possible
Ya! Such as LRT’s, monorails, taxies and busses
If you have no choice… car pool to work or school
How does that help in saving the planet?
This will reduce the amount ofCO2 emission a person can produce
And finally…
Number 1
Drum roll please!
Spread the message around
Many people are still not aware
About the importance of saving our Earth
Our Planet is dying
And
As citizens of the world
We must stand united to fight this
Mahatma Gandhi said
“We must be the change that we want to see in others.”
Together, let’s put our hearts
And heads together
To save our Planet
For today, for tomorrow
And for the future.

♥our lips must always be sealed

10:27 PM

Friday, August 14, 2009

What the ass hole? How come all teacher help him? Even he was my school; head prefect doesn’t mean that all teachers must help him, right? Why teacher so unfair? When exam that time my entire subject teacher especially CHEMISTRY! My chemistry teacher stands between HIM (Mr. S) and Andrea there. Then this teacher told all Andrea answers to HIM! How can she so unfair? Every exam she also do like that. When exam additional mathematic, she saw Andrea answer and gave him Andrea’s answer! Andrea concentrated doing this exam without noticed that this teacher did like that. Another teacher that helps him was my Malay language teacher! She gave him saw all the exam paper before the exam started and asked him ‘Isn’t this is SPM format?’ Then, he saw all the history question and take the history book and kept on reading but still unable to answer and he don’t want to tell all my classmate what came out for the history exam! This Malay language teacher also asked the same question to Andrea but, when the exam almost started! I was wondering why he still unable to answer! And yesterday 13th Aug 2009, he made me damn angry! After finish tuition, I saw my tuition friend Jeremy and I have a conservation with him. Then Mr. S suddenly scolded me ‘Meng Yee! Faster la!’ I was shocked! When reached the bus stop, I just leave him and his girl friend only. He know that I’m angry him! He said S.O.R.R.Y to me because of what he said on yesterday but I never said that I forgive him because I know that if I forgive him, he will do the same thing again! He think that only him unable to answered the additional mathematic only? I was not enough time to answer certain question; I just leave my question with the E.M.P.T.Y answer! And I almost cried while I doing additional mathematic question. This was the first time I did my additional mathematic with full with all the feeling. Especially sad, angry, disappointed, scare; every negative expression was came out when I did my additional mathematic. I scream in front of my additional mathematic teacher! She looked at me and smiled! I scared I failed my additional mathematic! I don’t hope my favorite subject failed! And today 14th Aug 2009 was exam my account subject. I had forgotten the account format. All my fear came again. I don’t want every time exam I got that feeling against on me. T.T

♥our lips must always be sealed

8:22 PM

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Here, start my love journey again. It brings me back to few months ago. This story might be kind hurt for me that’s why until now I still remember or maybe I already forgotten how’s the “HURT” feeling really feel and that’s why I had repeated my history again.

20th January 2009
The day that I accepted Mr. T as my boyfriend.

29th January 2009
Chinese New Year, went to Mr. T house with his friend.

14th February 2009
Valentine day, I and Mr. T unable to celebrate together because he said he sick.

13th Mar 2009
Unforgettable day in my life. Because something happen at chat room.

28th Mar 2009
Pui San birthday party celebrated with me, Tze Ling, Chee Ching, Andrea, Nicole, Mr. T and it was a bad memory for Pui San

12th April 2009
The unhappy incident happen. All of my gang Pui San, Tze Ling, Andrea, Chee Ching, Nicole, Jeremy and Mr. T sat together. We make noise until Umaas angry with us and called Jeremy and Mr. T sat in front. Because of this, make me and him cold war.

14th April 2009
The day that my old friend told me that Mr. T had another girl friend. But I don’t know why I had no feeling when I knew that news.

16th April 2009
The day I and him break up. He asked me ‘we be friend back, ok?’ And I asked him ‘why?’ He told me that he can’t concentrate on study while couple with me. Isn’t he given excuse because wan asked for break? Or maybe he want couple with that girl so that he want break with me? But I still keep on asked him isn’t he couple with that girl. First – first he not admit but at last he said ‘I don’t want to hurt you.’ By saying this word he already let me know that he really couple with that girl.

23th April 2009
The day that he told me he still love me by sent message and tell me the half story of this case. I saw the message and I feel happy. I think that I and he still got hope. Then I asked him ‘Isn’t you really want together back with me?’ And he answered ‘give me one week to think about it.’ After he said this word, I know what’s happening already. And I just let one week passed and waited for his answer.

3th May 2009
The day that he given me the answer. I still remember that Pui San said ‘single life is better right?’ Then he said ‘yes! Single life is better. No need to think a lot of stuff.’ At that moment I don’t know what I should say. I just only can say ‘I agree that too!’ Maybe if he did not told me that he still love me and the half way story, I won’t be so hurt that he said break up. I wondering why he said break up that moment I had no feeling? Am not I known this will happen one day? Or I had early prepared this word B.R.E.A.K. U.P since I couple with him? Then why I feel hurt when he said that word? This is the question that without an answer.

Anyway, he had given me a lot of sweet and bitter memories. Every message that you sent to me still stick on my mind even I had deleted the entire message. Even our date is less but it carries a lot of memories for me. Even now it look like we can’t be friend but I will still wish you that don’t treat other girl like that anymore. It very hurt people feeling. And, if now u asked once again ‘did I still love you or not?’ I will answer you honestly ‘before yes! But now, I do not love you anymore!’ I just keep you as a friend. That all!

♥our lips must always be sealed

6:32 PM

At last I create the new blog! And the most important is I can online! hehe! ^^ After this post, my entire real life story will be post up here. No mater what happen I will be said out at here! Wondering why I put my school picture? o.0 Actually the reason is my school landscape so nice. ^o^ Even my blog >> incomplete of reflection also got the reason why I put that name. If you understand me, you might be understood why I put this name right? xD Anyway, I hope you all won’t feel disappointed every single word I write here! >,<

♥our lips must always be sealed

6:02 PM