Here, start my love journey again. It brings me back to few months ago. This story might be kind hurt for me that’s why until now I still remember or maybe I already forgotten how’s the “HURT” feeling really feel and that’s why I had repeated my history again.

20th January 2009
The day that I accepted Mr. T as my boyfriend.

29th January 2009
Chinese New Year, went to Mr. T house with his friend.

14th February 2009
Valentine day, I and Mr. T unable to celebrate together because he said he sick.

13th Mar 2009
Unforgettable day in my life. Because something happen at chat room.

28th Mar 2009
Pui San birthday party celebrated with me, Tze Ling, Chee Ching, Andrea, Nicole, Mr. T and it was a bad memory for Pui San

12th April 2009
The unhappy incident happen. All of my gang Pui San, Tze Ling, Andrea, Chee Ching, Nicole, Jeremy and Mr. T sat together. We make noise until Umaas angry with us and called Jeremy and Mr. T sat in front. Because of this, make me and him cold war.

14th April 2009
The day that my old friend told me that Mr. T had another girl friend. But I don’t know why I had no feeling when I knew that news.

16th April 2009
The day I and him break up. He asked me ‘we be friend back, ok?’ And I asked him ‘why?’ He told me that he can’t concentrate on study while couple with me. Isn’t he given excuse because wan asked for break? Or maybe he want couple with that girl so that he want break with me? But I still keep on asked him isn’t he couple with that girl. First – first he not admit but at last he said ‘I don’t want to hurt you.’ By saying this word he already let me know that he really couple with that girl.

23th April 2009
The day that he told me he still love me by sent message and tell me the half story of this case. I saw the message and I feel happy. I think that I and he still got hope. Then I asked him ‘Isn’t you really want together back with me?’ And he answered ‘give me one week to think about it.’ After he said this word, I know what’s happening already. And I just let one week passed and waited for his answer.

3th May 2009
The day that he given me the answer. I still remember that Pui San said ‘single life is better right?’ Then he said ‘yes! Single life is better. No need to think a lot of stuff.’ At that moment I don’t know what I should say. I just only can say ‘I agree that too!’ Maybe if he did not told me that he still love me and the half way story, I won’t be so hurt that he said break up. I wondering why he said break up that moment I had no feeling? Am not I known this will happen one day? Or I had early prepared this word B.R.E.A.K. U.P since I couple with him? Then why I feel hurt when he said that word? This is the question that without an answer.

Anyway, he had given me a lot of sweet and bitter memories. Every message that you sent to me still stick on my mind even I had deleted the entire message. Even our date is less but it carries a lot of memories for me. Even now it look like we can’t be friend but I will still wish you that don’t treat other girl like that anymore. It very hurt people feeling. And, if now u asked once again ‘did I still love you or not?’ I will answer you honestly ‘before yes! But now, I do not love you anymore!’ I just keep you as a friend. That all!