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The name is SHELLEY. Pronounced similar to Shirley but I don't live in alleys and neither could I be found there. I'm in love with Logan Wade Lerman, Rainie, Justin Bieber, Beyonce, Lady Gaga. And, a bit HIM. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. Except HIM. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Gray. Not much of Pink. Chocolate and Ice-Cream are my two best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Liar, Backstabber, Hypocrite and Nag. I hate them alot. World would be such a better place without them all.

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What does my life really mean for me? Study? Hang With Friend? Love? I don't know. But what I know is I'm not NERD! I wish I could enjoy my life as happy as I could. Life is SHORT! Please don't make it SHORTER! =D

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Saturday, October 31, 2009

Today 31 October 2009,
The end of October….
And the last day of tuition for form 4 class…
As usual when to tuition, even it is last day…
Tuition has to go on!
Haha….
I’m going to miss my tuition teacher… kononnya… xD

Okay….
Last day… nothing much to say….
Teachers call us to enjoy our holiday!
Exams also not yet finish….
How to enjoy?
Let me finish my WAR before HOLIDAY… xD

Tomorrow is November…
1st November 2009 = my sis go work… xD
After 2 days more HE going birthday… I’m going to exam…
Going to continue my WAR…

That’s all I want to say… not much…
Miss PTM teacher… especially MARTIN… xD chubby one!
Haha….

After the exam, I have to go tuition and dynamic too…
Go dynamic because want buy some book to do revision….
Go tuition because STUDY! Pay already fee don’t want go meh? Don’t waste my parent money ok?
Haha….
When I reach the bust stop which opposite Jusco bus stop…
I had missed 1 bus…
I have to wait for another….
Here comes another bus…
When I enter the bus I saw Nicole….
So I sit beside her…
If I don’t sit with her, I don’t know what she will think….
Later sure thought that I’m not song her….
I sit with her and talk with her…
About exam… and WORK!
Keep on say about work…
I tell her the reason why I’m not going to work this few week….
I got exam how I want to work?
Now I just concentrate with my EXAM not WORK!
Hey! EXAM is important than WORK!
I don’t want WORK and EXAM…!
It is suffering and I can’t focus with my exam!

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I went to dynamic searching for the book that I want….
And I straight away go back PTM there…
Before enter the class…
I having my lunch at opposite PTM there….
After finish enjoy my meal…
I enter the class and starts do my new book….
When teacher enters, I keep all my thing and concentrate with it….
After Masteri Penulisan….
Here’s come my favourite subject Add Maths!
Suddenly Pui San enters the class….
I thought she going to maths class…
She says that she has finish exam maths and add maths…
She enters this class for fun…
I’m speechless =X
A piece of paper is given to me and with ANSWER!
I was wondering why teacher give me with the answer ya?
Rupa-rupa teacher want us do on ourselves!

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Let’s talk about the main point….
Pui San and I back together… by bus of course…
When we enter the bus…
Searching for empty place for 2 people…
At last we sit at behind because got 2 empty place….
Both of us chat a lot of stuff…. [gossip… xD]
Suddenly she says about Terry…
I just listen what she says….

Pui San : Meng Yee, actually ho… Terry quite concern about you…
Meng Yee : *shocked! Why you say so?
Pui San : when I gaming with him at cybercafé… he will asks me about you…
Meng Yee : *speechless =X
Pui San : he asks me how about you nowadays…. I just say to him that you fine...
Meng Yee : =) *don’t know what reaction should be give to her…

Suddenly I say about something also related to Terry…

Meng Yee : you know what… I was wondering why Terry knows I’m not ngam with Tze Ling they all…
Pui San : not ngam?
Meng Yee : ya… misunderstand again…
Pui San : I don’t know…
Meng Yee : got people told him about my stuff… I don’t know who and want to know who is that human being… I think is Nicole but then how come she knows about it?
Pui San : I also don’t know….
Meng Yee : just leave it…

Pui San reach her destination…
I was at the bus thinking the conservation….
Think why he wants to know about my stuff?
Moreover he got girl friend already….
Why he doesn’t want to admit that he got girl friend?
What he want actually?
Does the story still continue?
The story between me and him already end?
Say the truth…
The end of me and him story is just leaves a ‘question without answer’…
I fed up with waiting the answer…
The answer has been postponed around more than 4 month…
That it!
That’s why….
I had tried my best to end the story with happy ending….
My happy ending is don’t say about the ‘question without answer’… he back to his life and with that new girl friend…. I continue walk my journey without him, but with my dear friend Melissa and my study life….
But since I know he still concern about me…
I feel like he was giving a fake hope AGAIN!

When I prepare to forget about him…
When I can accept he got another girl friend…
When I want to close the chapter between me and him in my novel…
Why let me know that he is concern about me?

Should I care about this concern? Or just leave it? Or pretend don’t know anything?
What should I do?

Today 30 October 2009,
My English test…
Have to study literature….
I day before English exam…
I read the text book short stories and poem….
Read until ‘The Drover’s Wife’ it should be continue by ‘The Sound Machine’
But I skip it… because it’s too BORING!
Moreover….among so many short story… ‘The Sound Machine’ is the longest story!
I skip it to ‘Looking for Rain God’
After read that story… I straight away go sleep… it’s around 10pm….
Too tired even though without tuition….
I wake up around 3am something…
Prepare for school stuff….
Then I eat something… too hungry!
And start back my reading…
While reading…
I’m lazy…
Lying on my bed again….
And… sleep….! Zzzz
My mind already set alarm! xD
Automatic study again….
And sleep again….

Conclusion : my mind is empty when I was studying and I don’t know what the hell I’m reading at all…

Back to school…
Enter the class…
Want start study back…
But I also can’t focus…
I just look through…
My 1st English paper is paper 1…
Essay and directed writing…
The paper quite tough for me…
Think the idea also half die…
When I got the idea… it almost leave another 1 hour….
I waste 45mintues think the story….
I quickly write 2 essay…
Time UP!
Pass the exam paper…
I was holding my paper because I focus at essay not the directed writing….
And my directed writing is just leave until half…
Without conclusion and elaborate the point…
And just pass up…
I scare teacher will scold…
I damn sad! heart pain!
I know my paper 1 will going to say good bye!
So I have to perform paper 2 well…
Or else I’m going to FAIL it!
So I keep on focus on literature….

Bahasa Inggeris : I’m going to FAIL! Sigh… no hope… just paper 2 can safe me…!

Today 29 October 2009,
My moral test….
Have to memorize 36 nilai o…
Shit man..!
I plan that I’m going to wake up around 3am…
But then I’m lazy to wake up….
So I wake up at 3.45am….
Prepare all my school stuff…
Then start read my nilai!
Why memorizing…
I feel a bit sleep… so I lying on my bed…
Half way memorizing…
I fall asleep…. Zzzz
Then I wake up again….
Continue memorize….
I sit on my study chair….
Then feel like my back bone quite pain…
I am lying on my bed again….
And sleep again…
As a conclusion…. I never memorize at all… I mean the nilai after bidang 4….
I thought that I’m going to memorize when at school…
Unfortunately, class too noisy I can’t focus at all…
Before moral paper begin….
I keep on memorize….
And berpakat with Chalerm… xD kononnya….
I tell him that if I don’t know the nilai de maksud please tell me… he say okay…
Wait teacher give us exam paper….
Oh my god!
Moral paper : 8 structure 3 essay… [3 essay choose 2…]
I do which part that I know… some part I don’t know… I jump to another question…
Don’t want to waste time thinking about the nilai and huraian….
Then… I ask Chalerm 1 nilai…
Cause me already no idea with this nilai maksud….
Luckily he tell me the nilai maksud… or else I have to think until the time is over!
Thank a lot!

Moral : I think maybe I can pass… not aim to get A for moral… don’t want give a lot of hope… ^^
Bahasa Malaysia : PASS! I’m proud with my BM paper 1 even not high mark… 91/130… paper 2 not yet know the result…

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Today 28 October 2009,
My first exam…
Here comes the first paper…
My first paper is Bahasa Malaysia paper 1 and paper 2….
As usual… exam life…
Sleep at 11pm then wake up 3am…
The purpose is to STUDY!!!
Wow… sound’s like I’m NERD! xD
Haha… whatever! Who care about it…
Because of exam I only study… if not exam I won’t study….
Yesterday whole day study BM komsas and the way write good essay…
When 11pm faster keep all the stuff and go sleep…
Because I don’t want to make my planning fail…
Planning is early wake up to study again…
I’m glad that I can wake up!
Yoyo! Haha….
But… quite sleepy… zzzz
Study all BM again… I’m quite nervous with it…
When 6.30am…
I prepare all my stuff and went to school….
When reach class… the table had been arrange by my classmate…
I was finding my table…
Normally when enter the class sure the 2nd line is my place…
But then,
This time different…
Sit near teacher place… [Safe zone because hard to copy answer]
I sit at Helmi’s place and had my breakfast…

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BM Paper 1 begins…
8.05am until 10.20am….
Exam begins…
Bahagian A Karangan Bergambar : langkah-langkah mengatasi pencemaran alam
Bahagian B got 5 topics…. I choose the 3rd question is about pendatang asing…
When time just leave few minutes… I try to finish up all the part that I haven’t finish….
The last paragraph and the conclusion were using the few minute to finish up…
The hand really very tired man… sigh… what a good exercise….

BM Paper 2 begins…
11.30am until 2pm….
Exam begins….
Rumusan, Pemahaman, Pemahaman for Komsas, Tatabahasa and Novel…
Can say this is the most different paper between paper 1 and paper 2….
My mind almost BREAKS!!!
Sigh….
When finish exam….
The continue planning….
Go tuition…
Wow… My teacher’s house really far man….
And the bus we take is Metro…
I don’t like it… SUCK!!!
Almost all are pendatang asing….
All the eye signal really weird…
What to do? want go tuition have to be like that…
Teacher go bath bath…
All of us lying on the sofa…
Cause all of us feel very tired…
When we listen my teacher bath room’s door open…
All of us sit back position so that she won’t scold us….
Back to work…
All of us go back study…
She asks us whether want to the objective or penyata pendapatan maklumat tambahan….
Majority all want do the penyata pendapatan….
Suddenly…. No electric… all were shocked….
Then my teacher thought that her house problem….
But then is no electric….
Funny right?
From Maluri go her house… so far….
Then no electric…
After that, we plan about the next tuition….
Then, we take bus go back Maluri there…
It’s look like melancong… xD

Tomorrow exam moral and sivik…
Moral have to memorize the nilai and kata kunci….
Sivik no need study….
Cause I’m orang bersivik…
Haha….
I will be not often online…

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Today 25 October 2009,
I went to tuition….
Attend sejarah class like usual…
Quite early come…
So, I chat with Carmen and Puvan…
After form 5 student finish their sejarah class…
They out from the class…
We went in…
I sat with Carmen, Vivian and Carmen’s friend… [don’t know what her name]
Vivian gave me back all the sejarah note that she borrow from me…
At the same time…
I was asking teacher the objective question that got some problem…
Puvan take my all sejarah note…
Then, he gave back to me…
I was checking…
Suddenly Carmen’s friend asks me to borrow the note to see…
So I just borrow to here…
When she return back to me…
I check again…
While checking…
Feel like missing 1 chapter…
I keep on search for it…
And I know my chapter 9 is GONE! My favourite chapter is GONE! If not chapter 9 I think I’m not going to like sejarah form 4…
I want to ask Vivian to find at her bag….
But she was taking her chapter 10 notes….
I’m waiting for her…
When she back…
I ask her… she search at her bag…
She can’t find it…
She says she will back home and talk it and give me back…
I say ok lor then….
After sejarah… I go to have my breakfast + lunch at kopitiam there….
Need to lepak at there 2 hour…
What I do? I take out my sejarah text book and my revision book…
Keep on study at there…
Even though it is boring…
But then no choice…. T.T
Then I go pay bill….
And when back to PTM there…
I was at there… don’t know what to do…
Take out BM oral to memorize…
While memorizing… I saw Jing Hui…
He no disturbs me memorize…
Cause I can’t MEMORIZE!
Forget about it….
The Class In Advance at dewan 4…
There is empty dewan…
So…
We stay at dewan 4 there…
I’m waiting Andrea because she says she going to this class…
I’m waiting her until my neck long….
Teacher enters the class and start teaching….
She also didn’t come…
For my information, she won’t come…
So… Whatever!
After teacher finish teaching….
4 am sharp…
I thought want to go toilet at block B there….
But then… many people is waiting… so change plan… go to main block…
As what Vivian promise me…
She will give me back chapter 9 note to me…
I was waiting for her…
And keep on look on my hp…
No message, no call…
Keep on look at the place that can search for her….
I can’t see…
So I just give up….
Bus arrives… I just get in to the bus….
But still looking at it….
Tak dapat dikesan….

I’m begging you right now….
Vivian ar… please la… faster give back my chapter 9… chapter 9 is my darling chapter…. You know how important ma chapter 9 for me? chapter 9 is my life… please la.. give me back… don’t make me fail my sejarah… I’m in pressure right now… don’t make me get more stress with it… my mood keep on down…
if my sejarah fail… I’m going to blame you… don’t make me get crazy with it… if my chapter 9 note gone… I have to ask teacher to give me back… if I can’t see teacher then how? If the clerk die also don’t want give me the how? If my sejarah exam essay… out chapter 9 the most then how? I’m begging you right now…. PLEASE GIVE ME BACK MY SEJARAH CHAPTER 9 NOTE TO ME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE! I DON’T WANT MY SEJARAH NOTE INCOMPLETE……. I BEG YOU!

PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!
PLEASE!!!!

[Status : PISSED OFF! No mood… I’m TENSION! EXAM FEVER! I’m MODDY! I hope I can BANG ON THE WALL!!!!! Want to scream right now…. !! !feel suffer!!!! Can I commit suicide? ]

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Today 24 October 2009,
Got tuition…
But I didn’t go for Sejarah when 8am…
Because I had already missed the lesson… so not balance…
I just go maths and other…
Before maths… I was waiting… don’t know want to do what…
I look at the clerk’s table…
See weather exam or what…
Then.. is exam…
When I saw Pui San…
I go the other side to chat with her…
While chatting…
I saw Mr. Kung…
I go in the teacher staff room to ask permission to enter his class again… he say ok…
When I enter the class… I sit at most in front there…
Waiting for Atiqah…
She enters the class…
I tell her that today got exam…
She quite shocked… but still okay… xD
When exam… she ask me help her to solve 1 question…
I help her solve then I continue with my add maths question…
I just sit at there silently…
Suddenly I receive one SMS…
My hp keeps on vibrate…
I look at it…
Nicole sms me…

Nicole : Meng Yee wake?
Meng Yee : *no reply

Continue do my add maths….
When the bell has been ring…
I quickly go down search for Chee Ching…
Because both of us got 1 period free…
And I had promise Pui San that we go yum cha together…
When go yum cha…
We keep on chat…
When 12pm sharp…
Chee Ching and I went back to PTM…
Meanwhile Pui San went to bus station because she needs to go to Queen’s Park there…
We finally reach at PTM…
Waiting at the counter there…
Dewan 2 got form 5 student studying physics…
Form 4 student have to wait at outside…
When form 5 student come out from the class…
Form 4 student enter the class to fill up the place…
I am sitting until very song song dei….
Suddenly my hp keeps on vibrate…
This shows that got people phoning me…
I search for my hp…
And I get it…
I look at it…
I feel weird because is Nicole phone me…!

Nicole : hello… Meng Yee ar… aiya… you talk la…
Terry : hello.. Meng Yee… where are you? Are you free right now?
Meng Yee : who are you? [can’t recognize who is him… the tone of my voice increase...xD ]
Terry : I’m Terry…
Meng Yee : oo…
Terry : so.. are you free right now? Can go mid valley….
Meng Yee : now I got tuition… why?
Terry : find work….
Meng Yee : sorry.. I’m not free right now…
Terry : then never mind la…
Meng Yee : oo… ok… bye…
Terry : bye…

The whole conservation… I’m sweating man… SWEAT!...
I tell to Chee Ching just now the conservation…
She also a bit gives they all zha dou…
I know why suddenly Nicole talks with me…
Cause of work…
For your information… I won’t work with her…
Haha….
Then…
Suddenly… my hp vibrates again when teacher is teaching…
This time is message again…
I search for my hp again… my bag is too big… hard to find…

Terry : tomorrow you got go tuition? Want go find work at The Mines together? Cause I haven find work…
Meng Yee: *no reply… cause no credit and no time just ignore even though is him… study important…

Special Corner:
Hey! Now I’m worrying with my exam… I where got mood go find work? Terry now go find still okay… he finish exam… but me not… I’m in super dangerous situation right now… because if got any happen on result… I have to shift to another class…. You know how embarrassing? I don’t hope that it will happen on me… no matter what happen… I must make sure that I won’t shift to another class! So.. Don’t ask me to work right now… I’m concentrate on my study… I already seldom online already… I online just want to update blog… and watch 1 episode of the drama… I’m in the exam mood right now… =)

Friday, October 23, 2009

Yesterday 22 October 2009,
As usual… no go school… self holiday…
This self holiday…
Whole day do what you know?
Let me tell a bit…
Chatting… blogging… facebook… watch drama….
I had set that I have to study on what time what time…
But keep on delay…
Lazy mood… = =
After watch drama at PPS…
I go bath bath…
After bath I straight away go back room…
No sleep…
Is studying…
Guess study what?
I also can’t believe it!
I study SEJARAH!
Sejarah o!!!! just study chapter 1 and 2…
Chapter 2… oh my god! Damn long… study until my neck also pain… keep 1 position only…
And I keep on feel sleepy… zzzzz!
When dinner…
I stop study sejarah…
Enjoy my meal and relaxing first…
Suddenly my father and I argue… [Reason : Private… = =]
I quickly finish my food… at go back to room…
I’m angry! Keep on study….!!!
I don’t want because of him… mix up my mind…
When almost 10pm…
I finish reading chapter 2!
Yoyo! Finish!
But.. really 100% goes into my mind…
Just remember a bit….
I just remember Archimedes pada zaman Rom [because physics also got learn about it…]

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Today 23 October 2009,
I when to school…
Morning exercise… [walk go school = =]
I reach class… sitting on my own chair…
I ask my classmate about yesterday stuff…

Tze Ling : chemistry paper 3 exam… they all say out all the peka we do…
Meng Yee : really? If like that then…. Good la.. we do so many.. can memorize the step… =)
Tze Ling : I think ho… will come out the peka 3… the neutralization…
Meng Yee : maybe…
Hafiz : Meng Yee… teach me do this physics question…
Meng Yee : let see… hmm… *reading the question…
Hafiz : so how?
Meng Yee : sorry ya… I totally forget everything about physics… especially chapter 2… and… I haven’t study at all… I just study sejarah… chapter 1 and 2…

Yathevan enters the class… taking chemistry revision book… [wondering why Hafiz and Yathevan suddenly so hardworking = =]

Meng Yee : Yathevan… why suddenly take chemistry revision book?
Yathevan : you don’t know? Cikgu Huda say that… if 3 science… physics, chemistry and biology… 2 science subject get low mark and 1 subject get high mark… still can stay at 4 Science… if 3 also get worst… then have to shift to next class… 4 Account…
Meng Yee : what? this is true? o.O no wonder you all suddenly so hardworking… haha… [a word that say from teacher about shift to the next class can make 4 Science student INSAF… ]
Hafiz : if shift to another class also never mind what…
Meng Yee : why you say so?
Yathevan : if shift to Account class… when register SPM we can register it what…
Meng Yee : ya o… haha…

[Helmi enters the class… Yathevan LC Helmi]

Yathevan : Helmi… tengok.. saya ada bawa buku rujukan chemistry…
Hafiz : saya ada bawa buku physic…
Yathevan : Helmi… insaf la Helmi…
Helmi : eleh… saya pun ada bawa… bawa 2 buku rujukan… physics dengan add maths… [he take out 2 book]
Yathevan : hari chemistry la… bukan physics la… kau bawa chemistry buat apa?
Helmi : ye ke? Ar…. Ye la… tak pa la…
Yathevan : tengok Helmi… saya ada bawa bukan add maths la… [taking Andrea’s add maths revision book]
Hafiz : tengok… saya ada buku sejarah… [taking my sejarah text book]
Tze Ling : Meng Yee… you know what… Puvan… ask me about chemistry… RAM, RFM, RMM… he don’t know all about it…
Meng Yee : what? don’t know? Oh my god… all the same thing what… as long as that is molar mass… and just plus then can already…
Tze Ling : this year he change a lot… always not at class… not at school and no concentrate… he thought that form 5 can chase all the syllabus back…
Meng Yee : but… it’s too late if like that… up to him la… advise also give to him already… but he not listening…. What to do? Now.. he have to study all over again….

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One day no go school…
Happen this kind of thing…
One day can make a person change… xD
A big change!
Almost every teacher attacks our class… 4 Science….

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Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Our class was the most hyperactive…
Every teacher always complains our class… [Reason : too noisy… ]
Normally… when we were in the lab… [I mean Chinese girl and boys]
We always chat about porn stuff… we are HAM SAP! xD
Always! Always at lab when chemistry, physics and biology… [when biology is always talk about porn stuff]
We get use of it! xD
Today o…
Biology was the 1st period….
We go lab…
Pn. Zalela teaches us about virus…
Yathevan says to teacher… wow…! The virus got diamond… xD
Stupid right?
Haha….
This is not the funny 1 for me…
Today also got physics….
We have to go to the same lab…
Chemistry lab was always the best lab ever! [I mean for teacher.. xD]
But for student maybe not.. you know why?
The table give anai-anai eat… all berlubang… = = many holesssss….

Waran : we love porn star!
Muzlyia : what’s that? ah! I know! Pordan star! [full of confident and proud of herself!]
Boys : hahahaha….
Meng Yee : hahaha….
Tze Ling, Chee Ching and Andrea : ????
Meng Yee : *explain…
Tze Ling, Chee Ching and Andrea : hahaha
Meng Yee and Tze Ling : waran… they all Malay girls don’t know what’s the meaning of porn star?
Waran : ya… they all not yet mature… still childish…
Meng Yee and Tze Ling : hahaha…
Waran : only we all know what’s that meaning… haha….
Boys : hahaha…
Hafiz : only government know what’s the meaning… [I don’t know what is the meaning of government he mean… ]
Muzlyia : *speechless =X feel paiseh

When teacher enters the class…
Mostly all girls ask teacher about peka physics…
After teacher finish say about peka physics…
We back to our sit…

What a big joke she make… xD

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

As I know…
Since that day Nicole was quite don’t like me… but… whatever right? I’m not going to care about it…
Today I was talking with Tze Ling about the previous stuff…
Unbelievable man…!
That day… 10 October 2009…
What Nicole, Jeremy, Jerry and I chat at MSN…
Nicole tell to Tze Ling…
Okay.. fine… I’m okay with it…
Most terrible is… Nicole tell to Tze Ling that I’m couple with Jeremy… not SMS! Is direct CALL!!
But the fact is not what…
Jeremy and I just worry she will do announcement at PTM there…
But… she not do announcement at PTM but at my school…
If Jeremy and I going couple… this is not her business also what…
What for she want to promo us?
Doesn’t she forget that she is the 1 who jodohkan?
So… are she going to jealous with the relationship between Jeremy and I?
Since that day Jeremy admit that he love me [acting]
Nicole starts not song me…
Base on my experience… she is JEALOUSING! xD
Or…
She thought that I got Jeremy so no talk with Tze Ling’s gang?
I don’t know what the hell she thinking about… = =
Most worst is…
Nicole tell to Tze Ling that she hate me! wow… she so brave man… tell to my friend… not scare Tze Ling tell me? or she want Tze Ling to tell me that? hey! Sorry buddy! You no need tell Tze Ling I also can feel it man! Even though I’m just start at this world only 15 years more… but I can know what people feel on me… I got SIX SENSE! [proud of it.. xD]
If Nicole really manage to let me know that she don’t like me…
Just tell me face to face…
Why want tikam belakang? Siao = =
Most funny thing…
She quite stupid… = = no medicine can cure it!
You know why?
She say to Tze Ling that she want to avoid Pui San and I because she feel that Pui San don’t like her… and she don’t like me… so want change all the class…
For me…
That’s a good thing ever!
Class will be less noise… less laugh… that’s the benefit right… haha…
Ok... whatever…!
This is her problem not mine problem…
Now my target is…
Want make Nicole and I become like a stranger…. Know each other but then less talk!

MY PLANING :

· 1st borrow Jeremy’s name… keep on mention his name at MSN or in front of Nicole…
· Make her keep on JEALOUS!
· Make her feel not comfortable with me
· Make her more hate me!
· Make her keep on avoid me…
· Make her feel that I’m get the happiness when with Jeremy…
· Make her less talk to me…
· End up… don’t talk to me… I don’t know her.. she don’t know me… xD


First mission done! xD ask for permission using Jeremy’s name

Meng Yee : wei… Jeremy… I got 1 thing tell you.. lolx.. funny betul… I laugh until like a mad people who just back from Tanjung Rambutan…..
Jeremy : ?
Meng Yee : that day you admit you love me in front of Nicole right? Then o… Nicole straight away call Tze Ling… Nicole tells Tze Ling that you and me couple… then o… she not song me… because she jealous I couple with you… then o… she don’t want talk to me… she act can’t see me… then Sunday.. she say she feel dou Pui San not song her…. Then…. She tells Tze Ling that she decided don’t want go tuition on Saturday because don’t want see dou me…
Jeremy : zzzzz…. What non sense she doing?
Meng Yee : how I know? She keep on jealous… very obviously that she like you la… but keep on want push to me…
Jeremy : zzzzz! I damn speechless… hmm…. I try to see what she do on this Thursday cause I’m going tuition…
Meng Yee : ooo… she want to avoid me.. I’m her musuh cinta… xD tell you liao… that Jerry maybe cheat de… only you go believe it… = =
Jeremy : I never believe also… but she got couple or not I also don’t care want la…
Meng Yee : ya la… I remember you say “childish won’t cheat”
Jeremy : huh?
Meng Yee : Childish = Nicole… I say to you “I think ho.. Jerry is not Nicole’s bf…. “you say “child won’t lie”
Jeremy : o.o? I did say such thing? I also forgot already…
Meng Yee : you know what I pro ma? Pro in memorize what people say… xD
Jeremy : zzz!! Go pump your study better
Meng Yee : lolx… me no mood study… I’m in holiday mood =) now ho.. me keep on make Nicole jealous and jealous then she will bo song me and avoid me then become like stranger… xD
Jeremy : lol.. then I wish you good luck! ^^
Meng Yee : haha… but I have to borrow your name…
Jeremy : never mind.. just use it… I don’t mind…
Meng Yee : ok… thanks for open minded…!


Success borrow name! mission complete!
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Suddenly…. Nicole private message me….
I was shocked! Then homeostasis xD
She 100% not song me until reach the maximum point! Lolx… add maths also out!
This is the following message that she private message me….

Nicole : tomorrow can start coupon…. Add maths….
Meng Yee : erm…
Nicole : that all wanna tell… bye bye…
Meng Yee : if not mistaken can take already…
Nicole : ya
Meng Yee : but then not really sure…
Nicole : I just inform you…
Meng Yee : ooo… I also no go tuition….
Nicole : o… k… la…
Meng Yee : bye bye
Nicole : bye bye


As a conclusion : obviously she not song me…. ! haha! Then should I tell her… me too? xD WHATEVER!

Today 20 October 2009…
Has an important mission to do…
Guess what?
I’m sure that you all can’t guess it…
Haha…
Don’t want to say the main 1st…
Talk about my today stuff…
Today got school! = =
Have to wake up early…
Hp alarm had been set but then I’m lazy to wake up…
Until my hp alarm keep on vibrate and the tone start increase…
What to do?
Have to wake up lor…
Prepare all my stuff to go school…
I feel like not enough sleep…
Yesterday I sleep at 1 am and wake up at 3am then sleep again…
When reach school…
School area = less student
Reach class…
Rushing do moral work…
Some pages not yet finish… [Reason : no bring back home and complete it.. ]
Like usual…
Perhimpunan…. No pengumuman for today… straight go back class….
Regret go perhimpunan [Mr. Sugu absent.. no need worry.. can go anywhere without pass…. xD]
Back to class.. then go bilik media for BM…

Pn. Roshidah : jadual peperiksaan korang dah ubah…
4 Science : apa? Ubah lagi?
Pn. Roshidah : ye la.. korang puas hati.. cikgu yang tak puas hati… Pn. Zalela pergi cari pengetua untuk tukarkan jadual…
4 Science : a lah….

We just student… what to do? Only can accept.. and obey…
Pity right becomes student?
But then.. teacher say this timetable still not yet fix…
I’m hoping that it will change again…
The timetable for exam getting SUCK! xD
All mess up…
Anyway.. this is not the main point…
The main point is…
Right now I was in holiday mood =)
Maybe too many holidays until I’m 100% lazy right now…
Exam around the corner…
Still holiday mood… don’t know what the hell happening on me…
Right now… not fear of exam…
Still RELAX…
Yo yo! Exam 28 October 2009…
What the hell I’m doing here?
Blogging, chatting, eating, dreaming, facebook …….
Meng Yee bila mau insaf ni?


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After school…
Follow the plan…
Go bus stop which opposite Jusco bus stop…
Wait for the bus to reach the destination…
I had miss 3 bus at the same time… siao…
Wait another 1 bus… B111
Reach Pudu area there…
Saw my sis and her friend….
Walk to the place that we want…
Want find work for her friend.. and I’m interview too!
Cause has to work when holiday…
Earn more money…
Cause buys all the stuff for next year…
Reach that place….
Fill in the form…
Many things have to answer… = =
My sis’s friend enters the room…
Around 15 minutes at the room there…
He out..
I enter…
Not enough 5 minutes out from the room…
I’m pro right? xD
Guess what he told me? xD
The guy says to me…
Erm… sorry ya… you not enough 16 years old.. you must 16 years old…
At the end…
Bye bye to this work… xD
This is 1st time interview = FAIL…
Mean.. I’m not working for this holiday?
Hmm…
Not sure right now… xD

Sunday, October 18, 2009

NoBody - Wonder Girls... ♥ ♥

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya
I know what you're thinking
Baby why aren't you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it's not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can't we just, just be like this
Cause it's you that I need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when I'm with you, no one will ever do

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
You know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want nobody, body
I don't want nobody, body

Honey you know it's you that I want, it's you that I need
Why can't you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody (2x)

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
So tell me why can't it be
Please let me live my life my way
Why do you push me away
I don't want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you.


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1st time I listen this song was at One Fm...
and I start find at youtube....
hope you all enjoy this song...
song was available when you open my blog...

Today 18 October 2009,
I go tuition at PTM…
Today’s lesson is sejarah… [actually I didn’t have tuition on Sunday but then because I miss last last last week class.. I have to follow it… moreover.. the lesson not same… have to tuition every Sunday… what to do? Just follow]
When I reach PTM…
I saw Carmen…
I talk with her while waiting form 5 class over…
Wait at outside dewan 9 [if not mistaken]
The bell ring…
Have to wait again [Reason : wait form 5 student out from the class]
All form 5 students out… here fill with form 4 student…
I thought want to sit with Carmen…
But then…
Pui San ask me to sit with her…
So change place…
Sit with Pui San…
We talk about ‘THAT DAY STUFF’
Story begin… I mean ‘THAT DAY STUFF’

Saturday 10 October 2009 [history]
Nicole and I were chatting at MSN…
That time my mood was not good at all…
I wrote at MSN : hey! Man! I got feeling! Bla bla bla.. [something like that]

Nicole : what happen? Why you look so moody today?
Meng Yee : nothing ar… just no mood only la…
Nicole : ooo…

[Between got some conservation but I forget already… not important… so forget about it but suddenly Jeremy name pop out at MSN because she thought my MSN talking about Jeremy… but the fact is NOT!]

Nicole : Jeremy is your one..
Meng Yee : No.. no… Jeremy is not mine! Is yours!
Nicole : Jeremy like you… and you too… he care about you.. and you too look so secocok…
Meng Yee : you go ask Jeremy.. don’t ask me..
Nicole : he no online…
Meng Yee : wait him online lor then…

[something like that… some already forget… = = here come the climax… Jeremy online… I was chatting with him and talk about Nicole’s stuff…]

Jeremy : never mind.. I help you to settle it…
Meng Yee : no need la.. she already no kacau me… ^^
Jeremy : okay…

[Suddenly another MSN window pop out… the conservation : Nicole, Jeremy and I… Jeremy set up busy… I think he was busy gaming…]

Nicole : Jeremy online… you can talk to him…
Meng Yee : *sweating…
Nicole : I don’t want kacau you all…

[she leave the conservation… but I invite her back… ^^]

Meng Yee : you talk yourself… go ask…
Nicole : erm.. erm.. erm…
Jeremy : hey! Stop spam!
Meng Yee : Jeremy..
Jeremy: Yes!
Meng Yee : Nicole ask you.. did you love her?
Nicole : wei! Not me la… did you love meng yee?
Jeremy : yes! I love her a lot… today I date with her at midvalley… 1 ice-cream 2 people.. we share…
Nciole : see…
Meng Yee : *SWT
Meng Yee : Jeremy… I also love you a lot ya…
Jeremy : no need so obviously…
Meng Yee : en.. so.. tomorrow we going to date at where?
Jeremy : the curve.. I treat you eat baskin robin… we meet at…. [don’t know where already]
Meng Yee : cannot so early… got tuition…
Jeremy : then… after tuition la…
Meng Yee : oo…

[Jerry a.k.a Nicole new bf has been invited]

Conservation continues chatting…
Let’s see the most funny and surprising scene…

Jerry : what is your relationship between you and her…? [her = Nicole, you/your = Jeremy]
Unbelievable answer comes from Jeremy…
Jeremy : she is my ex…
Meng Yee : ya ya….
Jerry : okay…

Situation change : Nicole.. from speechless become… keep on say both of us cheating… and I was laughing like a mad girl just back from Tanjung Rambutan…

Jeremy : I’m busy… bye…

[he leave the conservation… and everyone start leave…]

As a conclusion : obviously, the whole conservation is a joke! And… my mood.. from moody become like mad girl.. laughing whole night.. but then.. Nicole take it as serious… what to do?

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Pui San also can’t believe that Jeremy will say so…
She also keeps on laugh…
This shows that…
The conservation is a big JOKE!

Teacher starts teaching….

I’m concentrate… fuiyoo… kononnya…
But.. my mind… is..
Totally… EMPTY!... LOL

Ring bell again = end of the class..

Say bye bye to Carmen.. because she need to back home…
I follow Pui San and his cousin go cybercafé there… [da gei]
Play back XDO…
Lama tak main sudah tak ada skill… xD
Keep on lose…
Whatever la.. just a game… ^^

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After 1 hour,
Go Pudu Plaza enjoy out lunch..
My comment to Pudu Plaza : a lot of china chicks = = and a lot of old man.. keep on starring…
We just walk and go to the restaurant…
Order food…
After eating..
Pui San and I were gossip…
Talk a lot of stuff…. [don’t want write here.. long story… panjang lebar… Pui San and I know only then okay… haha… secret… shhhhh….]
Suddenly she says something make me shocked…

Pui San : you and Jeremy so close la.. you didn’t have any feel through him?
Meng Yee : no.. I just treat him as my close friend… [I was shocked! Shocked man… this kind of question comes out from her mouth…]
Pui San : how about him? little also got gua…
Meng Yee : I don’t know… [speechless =X]

[if got also just a good feel not yet reach really love him yet… so consider as no feel.. haha…]

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Finish eat…
Go window shopping…
At.. the store….
Then… we go back PTM….
I tell Pui San…

Meng Yee : you know what… from my observation… Nicole is not song me at all… try notice…
Pui San : okay…
Meng Yee : I had a strong feeling tell me that she not song me…

A few minutes later…

Pui San : I also notice that….
Meng Yee : that’s why…

Teacher enters…
Seminar Sejarah begin…
1st slide…

Apakah – memberi maklumat yang khusus/spesifik
Mengapakah – sebab dan alasan
Bagaimanakah – memperihalkan, penerangan tentang cara/kaedah/langkah/kejadian
Siapakah – mengenalpasti individu/tokoh
Bandingkan – menyatakan persamaan dan perbezaan
Bezakan – memberi perbezaan antara 2/lebih perkara
Bincangkan – memberi penerangan daripada pelbagai aspek
Buktikan – menyatakan kebenaran dengan contoh dan fakta
Jelaskan – member penerangan supaya mudah difahami
Terangkan – menyatakan fakta dengan sokongan
Huraikan – memperihalkan dengan terperinci/panjang lebar secara teratur
Nyatakan – memberi jawapan spesifik tanpa huraian/sokongan
Senaraikan – menyenaraikan secara ringkas dan padat

I keep on note down… actually o… this note copy before… just warm up only… xD
Moreover I feel sleepy…
Just 1 slide already feels SLEEPY…. Zzzz

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Seminar finish…
Promise Vivian accompanies her go check eye…
Go Pudu Plaza again…
Result : my eye no problem… still the same.. I mean the power… xD

p/s : short the story… lazy type already.. too long already….



************END STORY HERE***************

Already 3 day… [since Friday until Sunday]
My mom and my dad cold war…
This is not 1st time..
And.. it is many time if not mistaken…
Sometime they cold war because of small matter..
Funny right?
You know how they cold war?
They won’t talk to each other until a long period only talk to each other…
Haha….
This time can count as the problem quite big.. BIG! xD
Reason….
Cannot tell…
Private.. and this is my family’s stuff…
Only my family member should know about it…
Just want to tell that…
My dad and my mom cold war are very FUNNY! xD
Both are pretending transparent…
Haha…
From my angle see this problem…
I feel that..
That’s totally my dad wrong la..
How can like this?
He bad right? [Just say YES! Even thought you don’t know anything.. xD]
He really quite over limited la…
I also seldom talk to him…
But..
He keeps on tell me his problem…
What to do?
He stills my dad…
Can’t totally don’t want talk to him…
Later no income… xD
Mom…
You don’t want talk to him… then don’t talk la…
I won’t stop you!
+u+u.. xD
I’m evil daughter in this world.. xD
Right?
Haha….

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Today, 15 October 2009…
Holiday! [Reason : Cuti Sendiri.. xD actually I not going to school because school got jamuan after rehat.. and have to wear baju tradisional… I don’t like it! So I don’t want go to school]
I plan to late wake up cause yesterday late sleep.. around 1am sleep..
Today I wake up 11.30am.. [I’m lazy betul]
And do all my stuff.. it’s still MORNING but I no eat BREAKFAST
I straight away online cause nothing to do…
Online see facebook, chatting…
When around 1.30pm I prepare go for tuition…
2pm reach Martin there…
I go dynamic there for buy a sejarah book…
Sejarah man.. sejarah!
Can’t believe right?
I also can’t believe…
You know why?
Cause I DON’T LIKE SEJARAH in my whole LIFE!
But.. I scare I fail… that’s my big problem…
When I see the time.. it’s around 2.10pm…
I go tuition there…
Today’s lessons are physics and add maths…
1st lesson is physics…
I reach there…
Oh my god!
No place!
Totally FULL…
I thought want sit at in front there…
But then, it’s look like no place..
I change my mind and sit at behind there…
I saw just leave 2 place at most behind there…
Can’t see what whiteboard writing…
Mostly all students put the bag to reserve place for other…
Beside me got 1 EMPTY place..
Then,
My tuition friend.. Asraf .. he sit beside me..
We chat about the add maths extra class…
He never attend.. so I just told him what topic Mr. Umaas teach…
While chatting..
Tze Ling and Chee Ching arrive…
They no place to sit because they late come..
And I really can’t help them take place..
No place at all…
All single place and have to separate…
Andrea was quite late come to the class… I don’t know why la.. maybe traffic jam?
She sit beside me de beside…
It mean got 1 girl sit between us…
When back tuition card…
Andrea suddenly call my friend.. very loud…
I shocked…
And I just take back my card…
And concentrate back…
Haiz..
Physics really very hard! Very hard! Even got 5 chapter but then.. it is HARD!
How I’m going to pass it?
I’m start worry my physics…

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When add maths lesson…
I at outside dewan…
Looking for Jeremy…
He owe me my moral essay, seminar add maths working paper and exam paper…
Then we enter dewan 9…
We stand at behind there…
He taking all the paper tat I want…
But no exam paper… T.T

Jeremy : I got 1 exam paper… PJK.. so you want?
Meng Yee : I want it for what? I don’t want la… so.. we going sit together?
Jeremy : cannot la.. my behind de don’t like [his friend]
Meng Yee : then never mind la…

I go in front there.. looking for the place…
At last…
I go in front and sit with Andrea…
But then…
I really totally don’t like Nicole eye signal…
She like using the eye signal..
Telling me that she don’t like me.. or can roughly say SHE HATE ME! [I just guess from her eye signal.. I really don’t know la]
Isn’t she thought that I rampas her JEREMY!
She is the one who jodohkan I and Jeremy…
Now want angry me pulak?
But then…
Jeremy and I is not that relationship that Nicole think..
Me and him is a close friend and can consider as a best friend also… because he really help me a lot when I face any problem…
He cares about me because he treats me as a good friend…
So.. isn’t Nicole jealous about it?
Haha..
I don’t know.. and don’t want to know…
Whatever la..!
I’m not going to care about it…
As long as Jeremy and I is a FRIEND..!
That’s all!
Nicole want hate me.. hate la…
All the best ya!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Today.. 13 October 2009..
Like usual..
Alone…
When moral period..
Pn. Manimala didn’t come.. [Reason : not sure.. xD told already but forgotten.. short memory.. like FISH! xD]
Then.. as I heard agama teacher… [don’t know how to spell her name.. quite complicated.. xD]

Agama Teacher : erm.. budak moral kena pergi mana ni?
Meng Yee : saya pun tak tau la.. erm.. siapa ganti class ye?
Agama Teacher : kalau tak silap saya… Pn. Juriah ganti class…
Meng Yee : ye ke?
Agama Teacher : ye la.. kalau tak silap…

Search for Pn. Juriah… at her room.. stand outside.. [Reason : Pn. Ho was chatting with her.. Pn. Ho halau me… T.T]

Pn. Juriah look at me…

Meng Yee : cikgu.. cikgu relief waktu moral kan?
Pn. Juriah : yes.. at library there…
Meng Yee : ok…

Ci Jue, Chee Ching, Pik Ling and Zhe Min also waiting at library there…
But then,
Library… CLOSED!
Wait Pn. Juriah around 10 min…
They all go to form 2 class…
I was standing at there… [Reason : I really wish to go library there…]
Then..
Ci Jue come…

Ci Jue : go form 2 class.. 1 of the class empty…
Meng Yee : teacher ask us to go library…

When we were in front of teacher room…

Meng Yee : teacher.. the library there.. locked already.. so where we suppose to go?
Pn. Juriah : what? Lock? No body at there…
Meng Yee : no..
Ci Jue : we all stay at the form 2 there.. got 1 empty class…
Pn. Juriah : ok.. so.. we go there ya…
Meng Yee : ok…

**** planning fail ****

At form 2B class…
I was think back all the history…
How I play with teacher…
Everything comes out…
While doing my stuff..
I was smiling alone… like a mad girl.. xD
When the bell rang…
Rehat time..
I still do my chemistry thing… [actually I was doing and thinking back the previous stuff… ]

Pik Ling : Meng Yee.. no go for eat eat?
Meng Yee : whilemore.. =)

All out the class…
I walk around the classroom…
The classroom totally change..
Even though it change a lot.. but all my memories still at there…
I walk near the window.. which can look at the primary school… SKYL…
Suddenly Fatimah enters the class…
Talk to me..
I was shocked.. and look at her… =)

Fatimah : Meng Yee.. tak pergi rehat ke?
Meng Yee : tak… tengah tengok sekolah rendah diorang buat apa…
Fatimah : oo…
Meng Yee : diorang Nampak comel… kecil.. buat saya kenang masa dulu saya kat sekolah rendah… banyak memories… =)
Fatimah : ok lah.. I mau pergi rehat..
Meng Yee : ok… =)

Looking at primary school..
I keep on thinking… how enjoy we are… playing around… keep thinking my dear old friends…
Make me so miss them all… from standard 1 play until standard 6…
I still remember the name…
[School Chinese gang.. even though now I was far away from you all.. but.. you all still in my HEART!]
Yee Cheng, Elaine Tan, Elaine Chan, Wei Yan, Nyit Yi, Sharon, Vanessa, Juliana, Lilian, Carmen, Chui Yee, Alison, Kah Chie, Kar Yan, Qian Ting, Kar Wai, Penny, Joey, Michelle Kok, Yu Wen, Kelly… and so on..
[Tuition Chinese gang… you all also stick in my HEART!]
Melissa, Jojo, Sim Yuen, Kin Yee, Jee Cheng, Shirley, Michelle Lee, Feng Mei, Priscilla and so on…

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Then, I went back to my lab…
I saw a lot of newspaper at the table there…
So I take one [Reason : do Sudoku… favourite game! xD]
After playing.. see the newspaper… got any special news or not…
Then…
When physics.. I sit in front…
Teacher suddenly call.. Mei Mei.. [he calling me but I no answer him… he searching for me.. I think.. xD]

Go tuition alone…
Eat at Pudu there…
Eat noodles and drink a cold coffee.. [Reason : drink coffee because… I know when tuition BM class.. I sure will feel sleepy… zzzzz]
Quite early reach tuition there… 2.45pm if not mistaken…
Like what I do yesterday.. stand at counter there…
Looking the clerk…
The clerk keep look at me..
They sure wondering why I standing here… xD
I saw Mr. Kung at the room there…
I go in..
No other teacher there…
He look at me.. and.. smile.. =)


Meng Yee : hmm.. teacher.. can help me count my birthday date?
Mr. Kung : sorry.. today my mind mix up all the thing.. if want count.. need to concentrate on it.. scare give you wrong fact…
Meng Yee : okay..
Mr. Kung : you got problem meh?
Meng Yee : YES.. =)
Mr. Kung : you look like so happy…
Meng Yee : I’m pretending..
Mr. Kung : =) as what people say… human got 2 face.. one is the expression to give people see.. another want is inside the heart.. it’s look like a positive and negative charge.. so neutral.. =) if u sad and show the face.. people will know you that.. you are sad.. right?
Meng Yee : ya…
Mr. Kung : so what is your problem?
Meng Yee : =) friend…
Mr. Kung : oh… is normal… friend is like that… one girl tell me this word.. very powerful… “Friends like a clothes.. when I like it.. I will wear it.. when I don’t like it.. I will put it away” [that moment I heard this sentence.. I was totally understand the meaning.. very powerful!] You can buy how many clothes as you want…
Meng Yee : ya.. correct…
Mr. Kung : you get what I mean?
Meng Yee : YES!
Mr. Kung : sometime.. teacher learn from a student… teacher doesn’t mean 100% correct…
Meng Yee : en.. =) nowadays I always alone…
Mr. Kung : I also alone what.. sometime.. my student ask me.. ‘teacher.. you don’t have friend want ar?’ but actually I got a lot of friends… just they don’t know… sometime.. I alone go cinema watch movie.. no need anyone to accompany me what.. my wife work.. my children have to go school… so I alone go watch.. alone is quite ok.. do whatever you want to do.. no need to care anyone…
Meng Yee : =)
Mr. Kung : friends got many type.. some friends like.. when you need use.. they will find you because you still got benefit.. true friend is hard to find… you can find your true friend when you drop until very deep… your true friend will help you… we don’t need so many true friend.. just 1 or 2 already enough.. and count as many already… like my sister.. she pass away.. all the friends know about it.. but.. not much people come for it.. just sending a message only… last time.. I was trying to understand what human thinking.. but then, it is really difficult and waste time…
Meng Yee : =) I find already one true friend.. but then.. we are in far distance… she at Ipoh there…
Mr. Kung : Ipoh there..?
Meng Yee : ya..
Mr. Kung : ooo… so.. try to make yourself happy… I always sit alone and think back the happy moment.. sometime I will simile with myself.. =) try to make yourself happy… !
Meng Yee : teacher.. why ya.. I always think to the negative side there?
Mr. Kung : you are a person that easy cry and making yourself unhappy… you are a emotional person…
Meng Yee : yes.. [totally the TRUE! He makes me really respect him!]
Mr. Kung : maybe this is cause by your surrounding area… isn’t your parent always got problem?
Meng Yee : yes..
Mr. Kung : see… they influence you..
Meng Yee : last time I stay with my grandma there.. when form 1 only shift to here…
Mr. Kung : oo.. so last time they manjakan you la?
Meng Yee : NO! I always scold by my aunty…
Mr. Kung : so.. where’s your hometown?
Meng Yee : ipoh..
Mr. Kung : oo.. Ipoh is a nice place…this coming Saturday I’m going to Ipoh.. enjoy the food at there.. if not.. I wont so fat… =)
Meng Yee : =)
Mr. Kung : at there… the food very cheap.. and nice to eat.. actually I apply to become a teacher at SMK Pasir Puteh.. but the government not allow me teacher at there.. [SMK Pasir Puteh is my friend’s school]
Meng Yee : oo.. that school near my house… and one of my friend study there… =)
Mr. Kung : then.. I apply another school… but the government still doesn’t want to give me the school that I apply… the government kick me to the kawasan pedalaman there… and I come KL teacher at tuition center… if the government approve me at the school that I want… then I’m going to say bye bye to KL already.. at there got a lot mountain.. fresh air…
Meng Yee : Ipoh there… the government not yet memodenkan ….
Mr. Kung : you know what? My friend know that I always go Ipoh.. they suggest me buy a house at there.. now I still thinking want to buy a house at there or not.. =)
Meng Yee : =)
Mr. Kung : now government want do at train from KL to Ipoh there…
Meng Yee : ya..
Mr. Kung : this Saturday I’m going to Ipoh and eat again… =)
Meng Yee: =)
Mr. Kung : I got student want find me.. chat next time ya… remember.. make yourself happy… =)
Meng Yee : okay teacher… thanks ya.. =)

Went out from teacher’s room and stand at the counter place…
Suddenly Mr. Umaas go to the counter there.. find Kak Lyn…
Say a lot of thing about form 5… so I don’t understand at all…
Then.. Mr. Umass ask Kak Lyn to give him a piece of paper.. [Reason : write all the class for form 4]
Actually I don’t know what he writing at all.. I just saw the date and time…
Then, he trying to explain to Kak Lyn..
But then, Kak Lyn not understands at all…
And.. I explain to her…
This is the following time table for “FORM 4 SPECIAL CLASS PREAPARATION FOR SPM 2010”
Divide into 3 group… Group A, Group B, and Group C…

Date is fix…
16 November 2009
17 November 2009
18 November 2009
19 November 2009
20 November 2009

Time :-
2pm – 3.30pm [Group A]
4pm – 5.30pm [Group B]
5.30pm – 7pm [Group C]

NOT ALLOW to CHANGE GROUP… coupon available on 17 October 2009… Location : Pusat Tuiysen Martin.. Dewan : not sure.. depend on the among of student… [but I heard that is dewan 8.. I’m not sure.. ]

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When tuition BM…
I sit with other people…
I totally can concentrate what teacher teaching today…
And keep on thinking what Mr. Kung say to me…
When I reach home…
I totally know what should I do right now…

Think positive…
Make myself happy…
Alone is never mind…
Enjoy the life…
Appreciate what I had right now…
Change my mind…
Change the way of thinking…
Change my lifestyle…
Change my planning…

Conclusion : change everything.. as long as I’m happy.. that’s enough…

[My status : nice mood… =) ]

Special Corner :
Thanks Mr. Kung.. give me a nice word… “Friends like a clothes.. when I like it.. I will wear it.. when I don’t like it.. I will put it away” and give me another angle of thinking… =) thanks a lot!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Today… 12 October 2009…
I was late wake up…
My mom wake me up and keep on scold me.. [Reason : cause I late wake up = =]
Then.. I went to the school…
I go to canteen there..
Tze Ling was sitting there..
I also sit at there.. beside me was Ci Jue..
So..
I just silent mode again… silent mode + no vibration…
When at physics lab..
I try to talk to Andrea..
About.. what happen actually?
But…
I not dare to ask.. not dare to say any word to them..
A gap…
A mirror… between me and them…
It’s look like..
We don’t know each other..
A stranger..
I’m a stranger…
I sit at Syazwan and Acab place there…
Pretending studying..
Memorize lisan..
When BM that time..
Go to Bilik Media…
I keep on ask teacher about the final exam stuff…
When Sej period..
Teacher say form group..
But then…
I just sit alone..
Teacher keep on ask I’m belong to which group..
But I never answer teacher…
Then Ngaes say..
I’m belong to Puvan’s group…
At last.. I also never do that work..
Cause Puvan run away…
I just keep on take my book and keep on reading with different direction
At last…
I feel like I really unable to read…
And SLEEP!
Try to sleep…
Don’t know why la..
My tear keeps on drop…
When rehat…
I keep on think..
Want to talk or not leh?
I sit at outside the physics lab there…
Keep on thinking..
Think until..
My brain really wants BOOM!
Then,
Afiq and the gang come..
He look at me..
I smile and say Hi to them…

Afiq : Hi.. =)
Meng Yee : Hi =)
Afiq : tengah tengok apa? Semut ke?
Meng Yee : bukan la.. tengok daun ni.. Nampak pelik tapi cute.. =)

Afiq want to go away.. and I stop him…

Meng Yee : boleh tak tolong saya buat sikit benda?
Afiq : apa dia?
Meng Yee : ikutkan hati.. YES or NO..
Afiq : kenapa?
Meng Yee : jawab la.. Yes or NO..
Afiq : YES…………….! [keep on screaming] = =

Actually I want he help me do the decision…
He say YES..
So.. I thought want to talk to them…
But.. it is hard to me to open my month…
I don’t even know how to start…
My mind keep on thinking..
Which is the best way for me to start?
Then at behind the lab…
The middle.. [Reason : too hot.. want some air]
Then..
I notice that.. they keep on look at me..
I don’t know what should I do..
So…
I don’t want to face them…
I just turn to another direction…
Here come Ci Jue.. [Reason : she come for.. want know what I’m doing?]
She keep on do the sound.. * Buzzz….

Ci Jue : what you doing at here?
Meng Yee : hmm.. reading newspaper.. [pretending… and tear drop again]
Ci Jue : the newspaper so old.. still read..
Meng Yee : … [tear drop and I tahan for it.. she look at me]
She keep on play that papan…
Zhe Min : Put it back that thing!
She but back that papan…
Then..
I put my head on her shoulder…

Meng Yee : help me call Andrea come.. [voice quite slow down]
Ci Jue : Ha?
Meng Yee : call Andrea come here… and.. shhhh.. only her… just her…
Ci Jue : Okay!

Andrea come..

Andrea: Meng Yee?
Meng Yee : can I know what happening actually?
Andrea : actually like this… on Thursday… Tze Ling come late and cant see you.. then.. when bell rang.. your face look so beh song.. so.. we don’t want talk to you.. and.. that time u sit at Pik Ling there… so we didn’t talk with you…
Meng Yee : ….. [actually I was thinking.. I’m not angry.. why they must say I’m angry? And.. the reason of she giving.. I cant accept it.. ]
Meng Yee : Why suddenly so many thing happen? [I really can’t accept so many thing in the same time… really make me heart attack… suddenly give me such a reason.. suddenly Mr. T got another future gf.. all are suddenly! And my tear keep on flowing… I cant stop it…]

Suddenly…

All classmate say : Good Morning Teacher…
I was shocked…
I quickly take my handkerchief.. cover my face and walk back to my place…
Eye still red but tear stop..
I don’t know why.. my tear can start anytime.. any second.. and can even stop it immediately…
Maybe I’m getting good in controlling my tear… who know?
Actually.. I’m getting the feeling of.. out of the group…
4 – 1 = 3 + 3 = 6
Everyone got 1 pair…
I’m extra one…
That’s why I always say… I’m easy to be replaced by anyone…

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Back to the story….
When physics…
Teacher was talking about the peka…
I quite concentrate on it…
They got their meeting…
But then..
I saw Tze Ling eyes like starring on me…
I look at another direction…

After school…
They go back to class…
Put back all the book at the class there…
I thought want wait for them at Anjung there…
So.. I keep on pretending…
Pretending talk to Helmi about the cubes… [this is not the main point.. main point is.. I was waiting them.. waiting they all come down and go tuition together…]
Finally..
They come down…
And stand at foyer there…
Keep on talking..
Maybe they don’t know that I was at the Anjung there or what..
I don’t know…
But.. I feel like they saw me…
I got that feel!
I’m so big.. standing at there… talking so loud…
For what?
To let them know that I was waiting..
But..
They really thought I’m FULLY TRANSPARENT!
I start get fed up..
And.. just walk away..
Go to tuition…
Then…
I reach Pudu there…
Buy a sandwich…
This sandwich is my breakfast and lunch… [no mood eating anything]
After eat sandwich…
I go to the counter place there… [looking for Mr. Donald.. ask for help]
I wait him almost 1 hour…
He not yet appear…
I give up.. and went back to the class…
Keep on put the position like sleeping…
But.. is thinking.. and crying silently…
Every sound that had make by anyone…
I sure look behind.. [Reason : looking Andrea got go tuition or not.. scare got anything happen on her]
Every time I look behind..
I never see her…
Then I heard Mr. Donald voice..
When he stand in front of me..

Meng Yee : Teacher.. I want to see you later…
Mr. Donald : Ok.. problem?
Meng Yee : YES!

This is the only way of knowing how to settle problem.. I guess…

Suddenly…

Mr. Donald : why you sit so behind? Later I have to scream until very loud.. come.. sit in front…
Andrea : I come late.. so I don’t want disturb your class [for me.. she is giving an excuse.. cause she don’t want to sit beside me]
Mr. Donald : never mind.. come.. come sit at somewhere here… [he pointing the place near me..]
Andrea : *shift to another place but not near my area there…

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Mr. Donald : you and her fight?
Meng Yee : *just angguk kepala…

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Every time he teaching..
I don’t know why la..
He keeps on look at me and Andrea’s direction…
When he say to the student who sit at the back there…
I will keep on looking [reason : look at Andrea like how I always look at Mr. T]
When finish class…
Teacher asks me to go in front there…
I already prepare want to say what…
Say all the thing…

Mr. Donald : what happen actually?
Meng Yee : bla bla bla…. [Short all the story.. just tell the main.. I mean this case not about the previous case]
Mr. Donald : oo.. then.. why not try to be alone first?.. be yourself… don’t care so much… I will try to talk to them.. you already give them a chance for all the previous case… so.. just be alone first.. maybe it is good for you also.. try to be yourself ya…
Meng Yee : ok.. I will try my best…

Pack my thing and go to bus stop…
Get in the bus and start thinking…

Why? Why? Why?
Why every time I always be the one who kena?
Why is me?
Isn’t this mean that… this year I totally bad luck?
Whole year I’m going to suffer all this?
This year like “Sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga”
Already hurt.. and the wound not yet recover…
Another knife to hurt me again…
God.. you really want like that play with me?
If I still like that let you play…
You better take my life…
For me..
This world really hopeless…
Everything had given to me.. and suddenly take all back..
And.. one also never leave for me…
God.. faster take my life away…
It going meaningless to stay at this world anymore…
God.. I’m waiting you to take my life…

[My Status : Moody, Sad, Tired]

Special Corner:
Thanks to Vince.. always try to help me solve problem….
Thanks to Mr. Donald.. cause give me an advise…
Thanks to Jeremy.. cause every time you will be there for me when I need a person to talk with me.. [always borrow your ear to listen my problem]

Thanks a lot!!!