Today early the morning
12am…
I only know that
Mr. T msn… he wrote..
“I LOVE HER”
Then, I try to find out who is that girl..
And..
I know.. every time..
He love anyone..
He sure will put the girl she like at friendster there…
And.. I’m search for it..
I really want to find out who is that girl…
My heart keep on want to know the answer..
I look at the girl profile..
And..
I look at the comment
[I mean at friendster]Then..
I read all the comment that given by the girl and
Mr. TAnd..
I know that…
There is no more use to me love him anymore..
Why don’t I just forget him…?
I know.. how’s many percentage that I love him..
The percentage of loving him is getting decrease…
The level of loving him is not as high as previous..
I really want to give up..
Give up
EVERTHING that I have right now..
I don’t know why..
When I really serious with this relationship…
Those guy must play my feeling..
Why?
Can anyone answer?
Every time.. couple..
Not enough
3 month..
And bye bye..
Moreover…
I don’t know why la..
Too loyal until keep on wait..
Isn’t I really think that..
There will still have a word of
“MIRACLE?”Why every time break up…
I must wait for the guy…
Every time..
Wish for the guy return back to me?
Every time..
Isn’t I’m putting fake hope?
Cheating myself all the time?
Making myself like a cheap girl?
Making myself sad?
Making myself not myself?
Making myself like a mad girl?
Because of what?
Too love him already?
Or?
I’m just a stupid girl?
Thinking that if I wait for him.. he will return back to me?
Then..
If like this…
This
WAIT really for nothing…
I wondering why I’m so stupid la..
Why every time.. those guy must run with another girl?
EVERYTIME!
After search at friendster…
I go back room…
For what?
Cry? Sob? Sad? Happy?
All also not…
Cause..
The most sad was not show at my expression..
But.. inside my heart…
[why must always attack me when I already get attack.. why always 2 in 1? You get what I mean?]
I try to sleep because I got tuition…
I try and try to sleep…
But I cant sleep…
I just open my eye…
Look at the clock…
2am..
I still unable to sleep…
I just close my eye and count
1 to
100
At last I slept…
But.. I keep on awake…
7am wake up…
7.30am wake up..
8am wake up
[prepare go tuition]
I use few hour to think about..
Show I give up or not?
If I still wait for him…
There no point..
No point at
ALL!And..
Nicole say correct..
Just forget the pass…
Look for the future..
Give up is the best solution to cure my heart…
I wish I can
100% forget him..
And just treat him as a friend…!
BYE BYE MR.T!You are going disappear in my
HEART soon!
This song quite suit me..
David Archuleta – A Little Not Too Over YouIt never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best I know it is but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you
Memories supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard
Should be strong, movin' on but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own, how I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand!
Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you
♥our lips must always be sealed
8:17 PM
Mc Donald Ice-Cream
Sunday, October 11, 2009